Music.

last post for this blog.

2009-12-05T23:57:00.003+08:00

alright folks this will be the last post ever for this blog.

i'm officially closing this blog.

reasons being i want a clean new start for a new journey in this part of my life, and there are lots of things i really wna leave behind.

this blog is a trove of old memories. things that will make me cringe if i ever have to look back.

it's time to move on and leave all unwanted things behind.

i'm moving to

http://clavecinistes.blogspot.com/

seeyou all there.
please relink me.
and.
thanks for even bothering to see this.

stevey's birthday in 1 day!

2009-10-29T23:46:00.003+08:00

argh i'm really lazy to update my blog but i cant let this attitude take over or this place will go stagnant soon.

shall make this quick and snappy:

points that i shall elaborate on next time i blog now im too lazy and its getting late:

-Senior high prepatory program day
-Halloween party tmr with dyb non-comm. dont know whether it'll be an ulu event or not but whatever!
-results
-CCA choices

...until further notice or until i feel like discussing more stuff.

okay fast checks:

1. LOANSHARK'S LIST OF PEOPLE WHO OWE $ PAY $:

- racking up the highest costs is....YONG WENYI. you owe me $6.60 + $73.20 = $79.80!!
- 2nd place goes to LIU YI HUI, $37.20.
- CHARMAINE LIM, $7.60.
rest of dyb members aka
-HONG YUE HENG,
-DENG XIAO ZHOU
-and PHUA KIAN MING,
$6.60 each.

grand total of......$144.40. wow.
owe $ pay $ or i go your house find you ah! lol.

2. TO-DO LIST:

-clear room
-i wanted to say clear wardrobe of old clothes then i realised that if i clear i'll have nearly nothing else to wear haha, which brings me to..
-shopping! but only in dec during christmas sales and most importantly, after my SECRET PLANS.
-haircut. want a change of hairstyle.
-shimei's birthday.
-suscribe to gramaphone. MUST REMEMBER!!
-weekend trip to esplanade to check out chamber scores and cds for borders performance.
-plan MEP borders performance (stupid ppl elect me as IC -.-)
-start research topic for H3 paper
-book shopping!
-finish list of what to watch
-buy korean dramas
-buy gifts for teachers!!

the list goes on.

okay i'm getting tired so i'm gna stop here. last words for today:

YU MIAO MIAO, I KNOW THIS IS LATE AND ALL BUT GET WELL SOON! YOU MISSED ALL THE SLACKING IN CLASS TODAY!

and.

TOMORROW IS STEVE'S BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEVEY!
You're 22 soon, which i admit is a bit old but with your personality you'll stay young always. :D
you had a great 21st year, so continue soaring to future endeavours for your 22nd and beyond!
stay happy always!
(and i know this sounds stupid, but)
and wait for me.

3 days

2009-10-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

if you see me from afar right now (not very possible unless you live in the Bayshore and you're spying through my windows with a pair of binoculars), i'll appear to be facing the computer with a huge blue bowl in front of me.
then you'll wonder: what is she doing? is she eating something? popcorn while watching a movie on the com?
upon closer inspection, you'll realise that the apparent 'bowl of popcorn' is actually a blue dustbin and yes, i'm cutting my nails in front of the computer while blog hopping.
wow.

okay random shitass stuff i always come up with aside, time for more random emo rants about the world, the universe and everything.

1. WHO CAME TO SCHOOL LAST MONDAY (deepavali school holiday), TRIED TO OPEN THE CO ROOM AND TRIGGERED THE ALARM THEN CLAIMED TO BE YEAR 4 DYB MEMBERS? WHOOOOO? WHO WHO WHO? COWARDS AND IMPOSTORS! WHO WOULD BE CRAZY ENOUGH TO GO TO SCHOOL ON A SCHOOL HOLIDAY ANYWAY? IT'S NOT US! WENYI WASNT EVEN FREAKING IN SINGAPORE.

2. now i am subjected to praying to all gods there are out there to let me have my desired academic outcome. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE OH GOD PLEASE LET ME HAVE WHAT I WANT IT'S NOT SUCH A BIG THING TO ASK FOR.
(warning: academic rant coming up ahead. dont want to read can skip the rest of this para.)
the thing is, getting good results for this year is extremely important to me at this stage because my parents are gna retire in a couple of years (they're older than most parents. my mum gave birth to me at freaking 39 years old.)
my dad's alr looking into retirement plans and all. it's damn disturbing and stressful for me.
and uni's gna take a toll in terms of finance. my eldest bro doesnt have a scholarship, 2nd bro wants to take up a 6 year architectual course that will totally BURN a hole.
it's not like my family doesnt have the money to pay for our education, but i just dont want to be a financial burden when my dad's not working anymore.
that's why it's crucial that i take up at least 10 units next year to be eligible for a scholarship.
somemore i'm planning to go uni overseas, most desirably UK or USA.
that's why im taking SATs also next year.
unis in both places are NOT GNA BE CHEAP AT ALL. plus boarding fees and food and everything, it's gna be fking ex.
THAT'S HOW MY RESULTS NOW ARE GNA AFFECT MY FUTURE AND POSSIBLY MY WHOLE LIFE CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME HAVE WHAT I NEED?
and of course im thinking all this discreetly and i didnt tell my parents any of it.

3. i just realised i screwed my junior high life. cant afford to screw my senior high one. i've gotten my priorities wrong and had too much fun. now i'm paying the consequences. nope. all serious stuff next year.

4. thought about it, and figured that the person you most depend on for emotional support is the person in your mind when you're feeling helpless. sounds very duh-ish but you have to experience it to see what i'm talking about. during my most emo time ytd (you all know which paper), it was still the same person that came into my head after all these months. now i know what miao means when she said that shimei's her one pillar of emotional support. it's the same as him for me i guess. but i've been making an effort not to contact him for weeks. forget it.

okay i need to go prac piano now.
got a first movement to bring up to speed (presto), 2nd movement to master the semiquaver-against-triplet demisemiquavers passage and a third movement to start, which also includes contrasting rhythm (wth!).
piano at 4 tmr, going to buy Vienna Boys' Choir tics afterwards.

last call for tickets now.

not to forget:

3 DAYS TO STEVE'S BIRTHDAY!

Stevey, please come back to us. ):
missing you.

2 facts

2009-10-26T22:47:00.001+08:00

rarrrh.

missing steve like crazy.

two facts:

1. I met the president today! well not really directly i was on 14 on the way home from plaza and was squeezed to face the window while standing and at a traffic light i saw this white mercedes stop and i realised that it's SR Nathan!! he's sitting at the back with 2 ppl sitting in front and there was another white vehicle behind and i think that it's part of his security measures also. so cool right! super excited and he waved to me (well maybe not really me but the whole bus) and i was the only one who noticed and waved back and he waved to me again!
wheee it was quite exciting and funny hahaha!

2. I'm not going for YEP anymore. as to why ask me personally. good luck filling the 200 ppl quota.

4 days

2009-10-26T21:18:00.002+08:00

Writing in point form is easier than writing in paragraphs.
so here goes:

1. As expected, today was a miserable day thanks to the return of the EOY papers. wanna know how i did ask me personally.

2. I am miserable, saddened, and utterly disappointed and disgusted at myself.

3. I dreamt of Steve yesterday night! it was like the only good dream that i had in a really long time. i was in this super deep sleep and i didnt want to wake up.

4. Went to suntec after school to eat with Eunice, Miao, Karis, Yi hui, Bella and Joyce. wanted to eat Astons but ended up eating New York New York.

5. Shared 4 dishes among the 7 of us and ended up really full. this shows that girls should never eat one set by herself.

6. Went plaza to buy halloween stuff for trick-or-tricking on saturday. couldnt find any at spotlight OR daiso.

7. They're now selling CHRISTMAS decorations which drives me pretty nuts because it's not even Halloween yet and they're selling christmas stuff 2 months in advance.

8. In the end did not buy anything except for a starbucks mocha frap. thanks to shilun i got addicted to them (bought venti as he said its the most worth it).

9. IT'S STEVE'S BIRTHDAY SOON!!!!!

10. Just realised that Mr Teo is a super super great teacher. i owe him a lot of thanks for attempting to provide me a little hope for history when i was so downright depressed just now. I owe him big and shall repay him someday.

11. Got a lot of stuff to do these upcoming weeks. Halloween stuff and DYB stuff.

12. Shimei's birthday coming soon, need to get her something!!! lots of stuff on my shopping list.

13. BOTH Shimei and Steve are Scorpios!! that's nice to know. :D

14. Glad that the BSP people are back even though i am absolutely terrified to try what shimei had given us.

15. Going to buy Vienna Boys' Choir tickets soon. anyone joining us?

16. I shall finish pokemon diamond by this week before my r4 can spoil any further.

17. Shall go on and make this list a nice number 20.

18. I'm going to update faithfully in this blog every day! (fat hope.)

19. I think i want to go gift-shopping for birthdays, christmas and to give my year 4 teachers this year.

20. Massive book list for both to read and to buy. still reading Sophie's World and can't wait for Kino 20% sale!

okay i'm done for this post.
now i'm gna go emo away pining for my lost results.

anyone joining me?

COUNTDOWN: 4 DAYS TO STEVE'S BIRTHDAY!
when i was crying just now in class the person that i wanted most beside was you. i missed you. how pathetic.

muse.

2009-10-24T21:42:00.001+08:00

MUSCLE ACHE. ALL OVER MY BODY.
as a result of ytd. ):

but i had a good time this week.
thanks to the dhsPEA comm! :D
but im too lazy to talk about this now, may do it next time.

anyway one random word of advice:

if you want to enjoy Muse's music, dont bother to listen out for lyrics.
listen to the bass and guitar. IMBAAAAAA!
and if you want to introduce them, NEVER introduce Black Holes and Revelations and beyond.
Nothing older than 2006.

anyway i can't believe i'm saying this, but i'm going for YEP.
if you're wondering why on earth im doing it ask me in person. -.-
im going with year 4 dyb non-comm. (:

bahh every time i wna blog im too lazy to think of what to blog. wait until i get my internet back on my main com.

see you peeps. told you i'll be back. :X

New skin

2009-10-22T21:04:00.001+08:00

finally managed to get my lazy butt off and change skin and update the blog after 2 months. still searching for the perfect skin. wait for the nice posts later.

more gold

2009-08-07T00:13:00.001+08:00

guess what. it turned out that the complete beethoven piano sonatas had ONE MISSING CD.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

MY CD 7! ):

so in the end i still ended up with an incomplete set of sonatas.
stupid yihui didnt really notice/care when she borrowed before me so now i have to report it.

but now in my hands is another masterpiece.

or a set of masterpieces, if i have to put it in another way.

Shostakovich: The Complete Symphonies.

hahaha i feel rather guilty for borrowing all these massive works BUT what's the music library for?

anyway today was pretty okaaayyy, i mean for mep.

recording was totally fun even though we stayed until the latest we ever did for mep, near 7.
zx's dad fetched us to tampines mrt afterwards, and we get to rummage through his impressive cd collection in the car.
in the end we listened (and sang) to POTO (in case there are some nitwits out there, it's the Phantom of the Opera).
makes me recollect that time i went to watch in year 2 when they came.
why did i only spend like 98 bucks on it?
should have bought the 180 bucks one. grr.

anyway instead of taking mrt back home me and yihui decided to explore Tampines One haha so we walked around the entire mall.
was pretty nice, had good food (it has subway!!) so will go back next time. (:

came back and prac scaramouche, gna play with zx again tmr after sch for a while.

after char's chem prac tmr dhscodyb year 4 non-comm's going out again! whee (:

look forward to it.

last chance i can relax before i have to face the upcoming intolerable weeks.

they remind me of this period of time with similar crazy demands from teachers in form of tests and assignments, i think around April-May.
the main difference is: he's not going to be around for me anymore. things are going to be busy for him soon also.
i'll have to rely on myself now.

random note: I miss Harry. and Steve.
i mean, i kind of gave up on Harry because he doesnt update twitter since 17th july, i dont even know whether he's dead or not.
but i've always been keeping up on steve but now he's MIA also ):
god i miss him so much ): ):

to end this off,
i just couldnt resist:

'Only failed educators become hypocrites who plagiarise from the internet.'

pure gold

2009-08-05T19:32:00.003+08:00

what i have now in my hands is pure gold.

seriously.

it's the complete BEETHOVEN PIANO SONATAS BY ALFRED BRENDEL.

yes, no kidding, the entire box set that has 10 cds and probably costs around a 3 figure sum.

and here it is in my hands. gosh i feel so powerful now, even better than when i had the complete set of mahler's symphonies (i didnt even like mahler that much).

oh once again i'm so glad that i'm in the DHP MEP class.
we have so much more benefits than the o level class hahahaha.

2009-08-02T14:49:00.001+08:00

am i the only person who uses the com to:
1. check hotmail.
2. check dhs mail.
3. check twitter.
4. blog hop.

and then have nothing else to do?
NOTHING???

oh god i have a pathetic existence.
i should have been living in the 18th century.
then i get to meet Beethoven! :D

2009-07-27T01:12:00.000+08:00

i am fucking sian right now.
i need more time.
more time in academics.
more time in music.
more time in relationships.
i really need the time to salvage everything.

im sorry that i seemed to be pushing you away all these weeks, but workload's been keeping me down so much.
i've neglected too much and soon you're gna be busy with your own stuff soon.
i'm an asshole.
):

Thank you, I'll never forget.

2009-07-26T10:16:00.001+08:00

'He's brilliant.

No matter what, I'll still think you're brilliant.
Even when you didn't do really well today.
You've already reached the stage where if you made mistakes, everyone will forgive you and still love you anyway.
You'll remain great in my heart.
Thank you so much for everything.'

24 July 2009

thursday night blues

2009-07-02T23:29:00.001+08:00

ARGH JUST WHEN I WAS MULTITASKING LIKE SIAO AND ALSO TYPING OUT A BLOG POST ABOUT ME MULTITASKING LIKE SIAO, I LEFT THE COM TO SETTLE BIG BUSINESS AND WHEN I'M BACK, THE COM HANGED.

SO NOW I'M USING MY BRO'S COM AND THE WORST PART IS MY PREVIOUS BLOGPOST IS GONE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

*screams in terror*

not going to post what i was originally intending to, so sian to retype everything.

anyway today was fun.

mr kiw's the coolest cme teacher you can get, not only because of the issues he talk to us about, but also the food invitation that yihui can't seem to stop talking about.

AH FUCK SO NOISY NOW MY PARENTS ARE FUCKING QUARRELING.

just now i fetched zx yh and k to the mrt from school, and we decided to go on a mep outing on monday!

yay! feel so excited about it now even though it's only thursday haha.

k's meeting yh at her place to get her bikes and im meeting zx at his place.

wenyi may be coming too. hahah.

and tmr we're gna have another dhscodyb year 4 non-comm cellos +bass zz+only male bassist lunch! :D

looking forward to it.

happy happy happy! (:

your sudden message today shocked me and nearly brought me to tears. you still care.
it hurts me not to reply. but i just wna say for now. thank you so much and i love you.

farewell

2009-06-24T13:49:00.002+08:00

Just when I thought everything's gna be fine, I am brought back to reality.

Time to hide all these distractions.

I have no more time to do stupid stuff like reading or using com anymore.

This may be one of the last few times I'm gna blog before I go on a full mugging hiatus.

See you after EOYs, people.

to do list

2009-06-22T21:46:00.001+08:00

To Do:

Tues:
1. Kino orchard tmr to help shimei buy her magazine, check out some books.
2. meet wenyi afterwards at esplanade library to do program notes research for recital
3. borrow cds
4. collect money like a loanshark from wenyi and mum

Wed:
1. Shangyin at 5.30, syncronising with accompanist. pray that i dont fall short.
2. arrange shopping trip and dates

I am a contradicting individual.
argh.
shant say anything more.

tom and giovanna made me angry

2009-06-21T23:22:00.002+08:00

oh my god im feeling so fucking pissed right now for no particular reason.

i mean, im just checking tom and his gf giovanna falcone out on twitter........
and end up feeling super pissed about the 2 of them sending each other twits.
what the hell is wrong with me.

thank you harry for living in the cavemen era or i'll die of anger if i see you doing the same to Izzy or whoever,
i dont exactly have updates on you right now.

i think im starting to like tom a lot.

probably cos i've been getting insights into his life right now through twitter but harry's not really doing much.
so he's kind of like distant compared to tom.

okay stop. get a grip. the world is turning into a crazy place if i ever liked tom more than harry.

harry's obviously so much better, right?

anyway i was just finishing up bio blog with the group, just kind of slacking right now.

was studying mep and listening to Tchaikovsky's wonderful Romeo and Juliet Overture, 18 min long.
genius.
pure genius.

anyway i was studying on Erik Satie (who shares the same birthday as me, incidentally) and the American composers.

i know that people already generally get the idea that composers arent exactly the most sane people in the world.
we musicians have our share of homosexual issues, early deaths, eccentricities, bad attitudes, unique causes of death.
just take what i just revised for example.

charles ives, american composer.
i can never forgive him for track 17 that i received and needed to write a commentary on for last year's holiday homework.
horrible.
absolutely horrible.
and since i had no idea who the composer was at the time i didnt manage to score well for that commentary. -.-
did well for track 7 though. it was Elgar.

anyway, love this quote that he said:

'My God, what has sound got to do with music?'

apparently he shouted 'You goddamn sissy!' to some guys during a performance when they kind of badmouthed his friend Carl Ruggles.
and he's good at keeping 2 different personas: he hid his job as a composer from his friends, to the point where his friends thought he dont like music and asked him to go to watch opera for once.

Aaron Copland's another one.

he has rather eccentric means of naming his works.

he has a work called 'I bought me a cat'.

and incidentally, he's gay.

Erik Satie, the king of eccentricity.

shant say much about him,
just that he has an umbrella collection of abt 100 umbrellys,
and when his friends found his apartment after he died, they went in and found 2 uprights stacked on top of each other, upside down with pedals interconnecting.

shiver.

and he's geneve's favourite composer hahaha.

okay enough with the music talk.
i sense that people's gna be bored at this post.

oh btw,

I DIDN'T KNOW THAT THE BEATLES ARE FROM UK.
I THOUGHT THEY WERE AMERICAN.
OMFG OMFG OMFG.

feel like killing myself for that.
they're the band of bands and also McFly's predecessors and i dont even know where they're from.

another trivial fact:

the wiki page on McFly always changes their pics, and the recent one IS GODDAMN UGLY LIKE WTH.
can they just put more FLATTERING photos of them?
it's not that they're lacking, i mean anyone can find GOOD PICS OF MCFLY anywhere! (Danny excluded)
except for wiki, apparently.
PLEASE CHANGE THE MCFLY PICS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON! REAL SOON!

anyway we're done with our bio blog! :D
check it out people.

http://joannatanziqi.blogspot.com/

it's me who came out with the cool url okay.

yay at least it's done! finally! (:
the group's pretty cooperative. :D

and VIDEO GAMES LIVE is pretty good, went on friday with brothers.

things that tweaked the entire show and disappointed me rather badly:
1. WHERE ARE THE SQUARE VIDEOS? MAJOR MAJOR disappointment for me.
2. PROGRAM BOOKLETS. this is a proper concert people.
3. random vids? with absolutely no link to the show whatsoever.
4. started late, around 10 min. why is it that every time i go to the indoor stadium show will start late?
5. stupid flyers they flood us with at the entrance. complete waste of paper.

other than those, it's really decent, exceeded my expectations.
will go into details next time if i feel like.

okay to end this post, here's something really really random:

ZixUaN!!- MuSic MakEs mY WorlD Go RoUnd!!! PiA!! ChIonG!! MuG! says:
JOKES OF THE DAY: WHAT IS THE COW"S FAV MUSICIAN
Joanna Stefani Germanotta. says:
huh
Joanna Stefani Germanotta. says:
what kind of lame joke is that supposed to be?

ZixUaN!!- MuSic MakEs mY WorlD Go RoUnd!!! PiA!! ChIonG!! MuG! says:
MOOZART
Joanna Stefani Germanotta. says:
lol
'hUi.qi where the light falls like rain says:
o0
Where castles are made of sand, we start to dance. says:
oh my fuck
Where castles are made of sand, we start to dance. says:
lol

...

the message i've been waiting for finally arrived today, after 4 days.
i didn't reply you though.
i dont know what to say.
it's gna be 17 days since the last time.
never separated from you for so long before.

just pure good ol' randomness

2009-06-19T14:39:00.003+08:00

It's pretty sad in an ironic way when you keep receiving smses from different people asking academic stuff when the only thing you really look forward to is the one message from the person whom you've haven't contacted in over 10 days because he's overseas but he just came back yesterday but still haven't contacted you.

what is this i tell you.

okay some really random facts that i've discovered/did over the days:

1. Ireland has a smaller population than Singapore.
2. While at parkway sistic buying tickets for the international piano festival, out of a single pure shed of hope i asked for tickets to the Li Yundi gala and miraculously I GRABBED THE LAST CATEGORY 1 TICKET which cost me $123 but who cares WAHAHAHAHA I'M GOING TO THE FREAKING LI YUNDI GALA CONCERT IN YOUR FACE YOU ~~MORONS~~ WHO SNATCHED THE TICKETS ONLINE 2 MONTHS BEFORE THE CONCERT.
3. Finally I can listen to Tchaikovsky's piano concerto no. 1 again after grabbing that ticket.
4. I updated the dyb blog check it out ppl.
5. Macarons are officially my new favourite food.
6. Taoka and i managed to spend over 200 bucks on books alone at kino. proness!
7. Dang you bio blog.
8. I MISS HARRY AND TOM ):

alright i'm running out of complete randomness.

i havent really been in contact with lots of people, guessing others are also like that, we're just doing our own things and stuff.
so far i did a bit of homework, managed to get to eat whatever cravings i wanted so now i'm completely off food.

reconnected with a few people, like going back to visit rssco with charmaine, hanging out with primary sch friends, cousins' night out and stuff.
it's great, but it seems like im getting less contact with current people like miao and the others.

sorry jo for not able to cut hair with you ):

im glad that shimei calls once every few days and we'll just talk lots for a long time, never really run of things to talk about.
fangirling, homework, stress, wondering for the future, making decisions and choices.
it's nice to be able to share that.
:D

humans are purpose-driven, arent they?
i know i am, but i dont know if it's a good thing.

i like to know that at least i have something to strive forward for, and i'm not like some others who dont really have a clue on what they want, and just end up following the flow but until you're old then you realise, this is not what i really wanted.

sooner or later, i'll have to make a decision that will change my future forever.
it's not like i can look back and revert if i want to.
we're all at a crossroads.

just wait for me. just a few years more.

contrary.

2009-06-08T23:50:00.003+08:00

what the hell is wrong with me?

whats with all these dreams and nightmares i'm having about you recently?

sometimes im scared you'll leave me, or you're suffering and i cant help.
i hate feeling helpless.

i suddenly have this urge nowadays to shout at you,
'Who are you and what the hell are you doing to my life?'

then i remembered.
you're this great person who gave me so much in my life,
who am i to say that to you?

what is wrong with me in the first place to want to yell that at you?

whats this i'm feeling?

went out with you today, and i examined my feelings once again.

why is it that im unable to make eye contact with you when you talk to me?

i know you're looking at me, but sometimes i just cant bring myself to look at you in the face.

why?

and i realised im kind of all tensed up the entire time when i was with you.

i dont know why.

shit, what is this i'm feeling?

okay.

you're leaving tmr morning, but i'm gna be okay because taoka's finally POPing tmr (:
with him around until you're back, hopefully i'm gna be fine.

and while you're off, maybe i can sort out my feelings and get everything else done,
so that i'll feel better when you come back.
and maybe, we can work things out.

i've wished you well for your long-deserved holiday already, so i wont say it again.

TAOKA'S COMING BACK!
TAOKA'S COMING BACK!
TAOKA'S COMING BACK!
TAOKA'S COMING BACK!
TAOKA'S COMING BACK!

OMG YAY I'M SO HAPPY! :D

he's gna be back for a couple of weeks only, but it's so much better than those 48 hours a week we spend together.
finally, he's gna be here, and everything's gna be all right.
thank god he's coming back at the right time, or i'm gna die without the 2 of you.
yay with taoka back, i can rely on him for lots of stuff!
:D happy now.

oh, and sunday's class was damn damn damn fun, cant believe i had so much fun with boonxuan, si hui and si qi.
it's super coincidence that they learn from my piano teacher's sis also.
omg so fun! :D
we basically had lots of fun and at the same time threw our faces away.
haha.
the food was nice too,
and one of the most important thing is,
I'M GETTING OVER MY FEAR! YES!!!
im not screwing up my public performances any more hahaha. (:

another happy thing is,
IM FINALLY PERFECTING MY INTERMEZZO!
:D
it's starting to sound damn good now, and it's only 2 weeks.
omg i'm super happy about it.
it's totally my kind of music.
hopefully she lets me play it for the next class hahaha.
:D

maybe i can achieve i want, and hopefully things will work out for me.
i pray.

p.s.
i know there are some ppl out there who read and follow my blog.
can you all at least bother to tell me who you are and tag?
it's weird knowing there's ppl who's finding out more about you but they're not revealing themselves.
esp when it's people i actually know.
edit: I dont mean you Joanna. -.-
those people know it themselves who they are.

TRIBUTE TO MCFLY

2009-06-03T17:36:00.001+08:00

This post is a tribute to McFly, the greatest band ever in history.
If you happen to possess negative comments for them then shoo away. haha.

omg it's like the start of the holiday and im alr starting to feel so stressed.

yesterday was okay.
chem remedial was pretty fun, had consultation with mr kwek afterwards.
actually it's miao's consultation but me and shimei crashed in haha.
omg it's like seriously the most fun consultation you can ever have. hahaa.
mr kwek is a great teacher, seriously.
i mean it. whoots!

charmaine had 5 hours of maths in a row with ms fung, until like 1 plus so i waited for her.
we went kfc for a freaking sinful lunch.
went library afterwards to do maths.

jy and jieting were next to us and it was damn cool cos
i was wearing last year's landui tee and so was jy,
and char and jieting were wearing same green tees also.
then jy wrote a damn cute note/letter to us inviting us to the CIG (Co inaugaral games)
it was quite funny.

then guanyang and ying2 were in the consultation room next to us and he keep giving us the funny expression, damn fun haha.
when library closed we went to finish our work then we took 14 home together (:
yay so it was actually quite fruitful.

if you're wondering what does these have to do with mcfly,
wait lah. train patience.

today was asean summit, and frankly if anyone managed to recognise my handwriting in the survey form they'd know that i had a bad time.
i didnt circle any agree/strongly agree at all.
all disagrees and a couple of strongly disagrees. haha.
shouldnt say any more.

didnt go out with the rest for lunch afterwards cos i was rushing to go home to prac.
went home, prac some more, get pissed off and stressed with myself, eat lunch.
prac some more, feel super tired and demoralised, go piano.

played like crap.
then found out i was going to play beethoven for the class on Sunday.
freaking hell.
im going to die.

so i felt totally like crap when i came back.
tried listening to some classical music to soothe myself.
schubert's Fantasy in F and impromptu in g flat didnt help.
so didnt berlioz, shostakovich, vivaldi, beethoven.
yeah. even beethoven.

then.

i listened to McFly and instantly cheered up.
seriously, it's like my drug or something.
all my troubles just evaporated and i feel HAPPY just listening to them! :D
god i love mcfly so much.

even though you're probably busy touring in uk now or whatever,
but THANK YOU FOR CHEERING ME UP WITH YOUR MUSIC WHENEVER I'M DOWN.
IT NEVER FAILS TO MAKE ME SMILE.
especially Harry and Tom.
Tom's really cool with his sexy voice and nice personality.
AND HARRY'S SUPER COOL! he's super cute and nice and stuff. whoo.
yay.

I'm glad that i'm able to get by with the help of people who i love and some whom they expressed their concern for me.
I owe my recovery from breakdown to these few people.

McFly, even though it seemed like an obsession of a fan or something, it's not.
I'm really glad that i found them and their music, and it really helped me a lot.
i think it's really cool that they're able to help people like me with our lives, even when they didnt know it.
that they can just make people happy by creating wonderful music and also their presence. :D
I really really love them.
and I'm really really crazy over Harry.
maybe Tom's also catching up. (:

and people like Shi Mei, Miao, Taoka, and You.

SM and miao's been a great help in school.
we live together, we emo together, we die together.
cool.

taoka, when he's back from army even for those few hours we have together.
i feel damn bad cos you're supposed to enjoy the approx. 48 hours of freedom you have outside camp,
but i still use up some of your precious time.
you're a really really good big brother.
where else can you find a brother who's willing to listen to his little sis emo talk till the wee hours of the night?
:D thank you too.

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH! :D

McFly McFly McFly
HARRY HARRY HARRY! (:

and You. i admit, when i saw all those stuff, i went nuts and yeah, i was jealous. no matter how much i wna be a part of it, im not and i cant. i dont know what im thinking. yesterday night i had a dream. you were inside and you're suffering but i cant help you. it was horrible. please dont leave me, ever. it's wistful i know.

LIST OF CONCERTS

2009-06-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

YAY i've kind of like compiled all my list of concerts i wna go to riiiiiiiiight till next year may.
cos SSO updated their calendar so i went to check it out.

HIGHLIGHTS:
SINGAPORE INTERNATIONAL PIANO FESTIVAL 2009
YUNDI LI'S COMING OMG OMG OMG OMG! CONFIRM MUST GO WATCH!

here's the list. if anyone wna go watch tell me (especially mep peeps we need to do our 2 live recital reflections)

13 Jun 2009
Sat, 07:30PM
SINGAPORE ARTS FESTIVAL 2009
Yuri Bashmet and the Moscow Soloists
(Russia)

26 Jun 2009
Fri, 8pm
CIMB - Singapore International Piano Festival 2009 (SSO)
Familiar Ground - Nikolai Demidenko

27 Jun 2009
Sat, 8pm
CIMB - Singapore International Piano Festival 2009 (SSO)
Familiar Ground - Pascal Rogé & Ami Rogé

24 Jul 2009
Fri, 7.30pm
Gala: Tchaikovsky Piano Concerto Extravaganza Li Yundi: ''No. 1'' (SSO)

10-11 Oct 2009
Sat & Sun, 8pm
Unfinished Masterworks (SSO)

16 Oct 2009
Fri, 7.30pm
Gala: Gennady Rozhdestvensky (SSO)

6 Nov 2009
Fri, 7.30pm
Choo Hoey Returns (SSO)

20 Nov 2009
Fri, 7.30pm
Titan (SSO)

4 Dec 2009
Fri, 7.30pm
Beethoven Festival: In Good Company (SSO)

30 Jan 2010
Fri, 7.30pm
Schumann Symphony Spectacular: Symphonic Fantasy (SSO)

3 Apr 2010
Sat, 7.30pm
From The New World (SSO)

8 May 2010
Sat, 7.30pm
Russian Rhapsody (SSO)

CIP

2009-05-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

i am becoming more and more of a perfectionist.

i have so much to say, but the words dont come.

today we had CIP and i think it was rather fulfilling.
but i also felt rather useless.

okay here's the main things that i suck at:
1. maths.
2. sciences
3. teaching and explaining to people
4. social work
5. patience with elderly and kids

we're not focusing on 1 and 2 today.

basically im damn lousy at 4, because i totally dont get 3 and 5.
due to 5, i cant do 3, thus resulting in 4.
i really have no patience or capacity to deal with these 2 parties.
kids are too immature and hyperactive. cant stand it.
and i really dont get what the elderlys' mindset is like,
nothing comes to mind when i try to talk to them,
and since i dont really know what they're thinking i cant exactly know their point of view,
thus resulting in a lack of focal point in conversations.

they like triviality.
i happen to prefer the exact opposite.
i cant talk about stuff like the weather and how many kids you have and how's day to day life and blah.
it's all so...shallow. not insulting their intelligence or whatever but it's so on the surface.
i think it's more important to know whats beneath the surface.
yes.

in conclusion, this is why i completely cannot communicate with kids and elderly, thus reducing me effectively to a useless social worker.

anyway.
why am i wasting my time pondering over this?
i have too much stuff to worry about and the main thing is everytime i feel like blogging in the end when i got here my mind's a blank.

im going to emo the night away baby.

HAPPYBIRTHDAYTOME!

2009-05-17T00:12:00.003+08:00

I AM NOW 16 YEARS OLD.
TIME TO START ACTING LIKE ONE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

i hope that my birthday wish can come true.

dear whoevers-up-there,
thanks for giving me so much for the past 16 years,
be it something sweet/sour/bitter, happy/sad.

now i shall. sleep.
i spent my last youthful hours talking on the phone, slacking around the com.
nice way to end off this phase of my life eh?

shall post more about birthday resolutions etc next time.

-happybirthdaytome(:

monster released

2009-05-14T22:22:00.001+08:00

i admit:

i am a bad girl.

my hair's messy,
i sleep in class,
my maths and chem results suck.

i sleep in class simply cos im tired.
due to lack of sleep the previous night.

i have lack of sleep bcos i sleep late.
i sleep late bcos i have lots of stress and work.
yeah.

i give these all the time. excuses.
i know im busy, but this isnt any excuse to defend myself.

i think.
i really spent too much of my time thinking about stuff.
most of the time.

i have so many worries, dreams, problems and goals.
so much stuff i wna say before its too late.

maybe it's time for me to stop all this crap.
i need a wake up call.

im gna start over. for real this time.
for the first time in my life, i need to mug.
i cant really keep relying on my stagnating brain to do last minute stuff.

june holidays. watch out. at the end of it all,
i'll return as a new person.
everyone, mark my words.

im not going to mess around in sch any longer,
like what i've been doing for the past few years.

there's so much more i wna say to everyone.
there's so much that i wna achieve.
im gna just shut up and prove it with actions, not words.

like the saying that's in the last pages of the maths notes:
'Love is easy to say but hard to prove with actions.'
something like that.

anyway love's not the only thing. everything else applies.
im gna show all of you that im not a weak person.
i am STRONG.
yes.

i feel like the whole world's going against me.
well, im gna be up to the challenge.

you're not going to see this, but someday i'll show it to you.
the day i achieve success, im gna make you smile and let you feel proud and happy for me!
this is one of the least ways i can make it up to you.
i'll show you that im good on my own, and i can really make it.
i dont have to rely on you all the time.
and i look forward to the day when i can look at you and say
'thank you for seeing me through everything. im not weak anymore.'
i wont say it, but i'll prove my feelings for you with actions.
i'll do anything because i love you. (:
so dont give up on me, because if you do, i'll give up on myself too.

watch out world.
im here to change things.
and im for real, this time.
for people i love, im willing to do anything.

last note.
Harry, McFly, wait for me.
i'm going to UK soon.
give me 3 years, i'll be there.
i am determined.

monday blues, mixed with a little panic, stress, worry and happiness, stoked in a fire.

2009-05-04T23:01:00.001+08:00

I'm currently feeling a mixture of happiness, panic, worry and stress.

okay basically the panic, worry and stress all stem from the same thing.
BLOODY MEP PRACTICAL + MATHS TEST THIS WEEK.
ON THE SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEE DAY!
WTF WTF WTF.
i must make it.
i must.
i must.
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!
I MUST MAKE IT!

YES.
enough.
this pile of shit aside,
im actually feeling pretty happy! :D

today's a pretty decent day.
arrived in school earlier in an attempt to do maths with shimei.
ended up talking lots of funny stuff like chace crawford and wolverine with eunice, yihui, shimei.
wolverine is a CAVEMAN.
AND THEN JOANNA WALKED IN WITH HER INCREDIBLE HOTPINK BAG THAT COSTS 50 BUCKS FROM ZINC!
sorry. that thing is so bimbotic that i cant stop commenting about it.
i know that i will never be caught dead in the streets carrying it.

anyway i had precautions for pe, got xl to grab me a can of red bull ytd and drank it this morning.
not as sweet as i thought hmm.
but there's no pe today, instead, some briefing stuff about the h1n1 situation.
then i calculated and realised that im missing 7 weeks of pe this term haha.
imba.
next week hol, week after level camp.
whoots.

but level camp may be cancelled though.
i dont mind.
WE CAN HAVE A STUDY CAMP INSTEAD!
lol.
zixuan joanna and me strongly support the idea! :D
cool.

oh oh oh.
and I CANT WAIT FOR JUNE HOLIDAYS MAN.
because i cant wait to execute the PLANS that joanna and i made.
haha.
we're going to do nothing but.
JOG. SHOP. MUG.
SHOP. JOG. MUG.
MUG. SHOP. JOG.
JOG. MUG. SHOP.
SHOP. MUG. JOG.
MUG. JOG. SHOP.

YES WE ARE.
and we're going to shop for hoodies together at that shop in bugis shimei and i found that sells tons of hoodies! :D
and we're going to act rich and go paragon to window shop. haha.

over assembly, we decided to have:

1. an act rich day, then dress up in glam garb and walk along orchard road acting rich.
complete with shades, prada/miumiu bag from bella and all.

2. a bimbo day, when we all dress up in bimbo clothes and hairstyles and paint our nails and stuff and talk bimbo the whole day.

3. an emo day, then we'll just wear like black from top to toe and act emo like some emo cult or something.

4. an auntie day, where we'll just be dressed in our t shirts and shorts and slippers, out to some cheap sales going on wherever to wrestle with the rest of the real aunties for x-branded goods.

ahhhhhh it'll be fun. :D
shimei and miao will come along also hahaha.

and also during assembly we started to imitate ppl, like imitating karis' 'hello.'
or shimei's laughter, complete with clap.
super funny.

after sch, me and wenyi basically prac piano in the music prac rooms and grand piano until like near 7.
it's super tiring and demoralising.
i seriously need more practice. damn.

just now me and jo are just swapping mcfly songs, and i still think that dougie cant rap for nuts.
his rap is like a half song, sometimes got tune sometimes just words. -.-
AHHH MCFLY! (:
HARRY! (:
here is today's harry pic.
IT'S THE SUPER CUTE PIC THAT I LOVE!

during maths just now jo and i decided to write dougie and harry's birthday respectively into our best friend, our handbooks.
then alex saw me writing HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARRY! and he's like,
'who's harry?'
then i went, 'my boyfriend. if you dont believe me ask joanna.'
lol then joanna went, 'yeah. he's in uk. my boyfriend also.'
me: we're doing a long-distance relationship thing.
haha super funny. he gave us the Look. hahaha.

and assembly the 2 of us took out our phones and showed each other our dougie and harry pics.
shimei joined in with her tvxq pics lol.

today's a pretty funny day. :D

i'm feeling a lot lighter nowadays because i've cleared my feelings up, finally.
:D

just wna say some stuff here even though the intended recipient isnt likely to see it anyway.
thank you for being in my life, even though you probably think it isnt a big deal.
i love being able to say anything to you, and being able to confide in you.
i love being by your side,
listening to you talk crap or act cute,
or emoing to you, or walking with you, wherever we go together.
it's great to feel your concern every time you sms me to ask me how im doing.
really.
i love you :D
you're someone irreplaceable in my heart.
you're like my brother to me, someone i can trust and talk about anything to.
someone that i will always rely on.
im sorry for not being able to be your support for you when things were down for you recently.
sorry for giving you yet more stress and having you to worry about me.
im an idiot. ): and yet you still find time for someone like me.
thanks for spending so much time on me, worrying about me.
thanks for saving me when i was on the brink of utter and complete breakdown.
thanks for being there for me.
thank you so much, i feel like i owe you the entire world.
how can i ever repay you?

a happy post (:

2009-04-29T23:44:00.001+08:00

omg, i cant believe i'm saying this.
but.

I'M HAPPY TODAY.
I ACTUALLY FEEL HAPPY TODAY.
MOMENTS OF BLISS!

today was a crappy enough day if you checked my schedule.
chinese test, history test in a row.
chem presentation.
financial literacy test.

BUT THEN.
I PULLED THROUGH IT ALL HAHAHAHA.

first thing, CHINESE TEST POSTPHONED HAHAHA.
then history test was super easy. chionged through it and my hand withered again for the 3rd time this week.

then PC was mdm sau's birthday, so all of us were super high and making fun of yihui as usual about food. :D
chem presentation was okay. just rushed through everything and was quite okay for last non-rehearsed thing.
yay im just glad it's over!
have one less thing to worry about. :D

then FL test.
the teacher never come lah, in the end come so late.
hmph.
it doesnt matter anyway actually.
even though we got less test time, it's not like if we get more then we know how to do.
lol.

then after school, went out with
SHIMEI, MIAO, JO, EUNICE, ELI AND YIHUI.
SUUUUUUUUPER FUN. :D
went to pastamania at bugis, omg the pasta is damn nice.
crayfish pasta! :D
actually comparable to swensons!
plus we have 30% off student deal, so it's worth it.

afterwards we went to embarrass ourselves at shimei's favourite shop, walked around and finally got to kino.
WE HAD SUCH A SUPER HILARIOUS TIME INSIDE!
LEARNING ABOUT SINGLISH FROM THE TALKING CORK BOOK.
omg it's damn funny when yihui and i try to pronounce some hokkien words without knowing the actually meaning,
and eunice and shimei trying to decipher and correct our pronounciations.
then finding out the real meaning of some of the terms.
we spent quite a lot of time reading that book, damn nice.
it's been a super long time since i've enjoyed myself so much.
we stayed at kino till 6, then decided to get dessert.

shimei and i shared a double scoop ice cream at J.co.
vanilla and chocolate. a good combination (:
the chocolate is goooooooooooooooood.
:D
j.co has surprisingly nice ice cream.
afterwards mainly we just took mrt home and on the way,
took turns playing jo's iphone.
quite fun.
(:

OMG IT HAS BEEN SUPER LONG SINCE I'VE FELT SO STRESS-FREE.
TODAY IS A REALLY NICE DAY.
THANKS TO ALL OF YOU WHO WENT OUT TOGETHER TODAY.
IT WAS SUPER FUN AND I REALLY ENJOYED EVERY MOMENT OF IT.
:D

and it looks like im really doing what i promised myself to do.
spend more time with friends after syf.
i wished days like this could last forever.
where we can keep laughing non-stop like just now.
like we have no worries in the world.
it's a nice feeling.
once again, thank you.

oh. and
CONGRATS TO SE FOR GETTING GOLD WITH HONOURS! :D
this adds up the gwh tally to 4.
ONE MORE FROM SHCO! (:
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

tmr's gna be a special day.
i hope that everything goes well and we get to bond really well together.
yay! im pretty excited.

and i decided from now onwards, i shall end every post with a Harry pic.
YAY! :D

i saw you today. i'm sorry i didnt reply your sms. even though im really happy to feel your concern. i didnt want to lie, yet i dont want you to worry about me. it feels great to see you, even when i dont have the chance to talk to you. please dont be angry with me. i miss you.

the unimportance of gwh.

2009-04-22T22:31:00.000+08:00

all along, our goal can be summed up in 3 letters.
but now that we've got what we wanted,
it seemed so unimportant.

it was thanks to the lecture we got afterwards.
and then i realised.
he knew all along that we would get it.
it's just a matter of how outstanding we are.

even though to everyone we're still one of, if not the best,
but in our own standards, we have failed.
damn. we didnt disappoint others, only ourselves.
and we ourselves knew it.
i havent felt it yet.
this is not our best.
not even close.
the world didnt us at our best yet.
they havent seen dhsco's best yet.
it was just like a normal practice.

this time, getting it didnt seem such a big thing anymore.
i mean, so many schs getting it. whats the point of it anyway?
the value of the award itself fell.

i felt...a little unhappy over it.
it's like there's no fine line that displays our standard over everyone else.
not good. not good at all.
no wonder he was so solemn when he heard the news.
no. we will not compare ourselves to other schs.
we are STILL above the rest.
like what he said. we are GOLD WITH FIRST-CLASS HONOURS.

this is not a competition.
we are not competing with other schs.
we are competing with ourselves.
and we have not made it yet.
that's why, we have not succeeded.

this is bittersweet success.

on a lighter note,
JIAYOU DHS SENIOR HIGH CO!
14 DAYS TO GO! YOU CAN DO IT!
A CLEAN SWEEP WITH 3 GWHS!
YES YES YES :D

thankyou all seniorhigh seniors for giving us so much support and help today.
you all are so nice and supportive! without you all we'll collapse. lol.

especially dyb seniors, including vincent, wilson, mollie with his tough love and some unknown others.
i was so touched when you gave us the board and all the messages and stuff.
seriously, i nearly cried.
thank you all.
i love dhscodyb. :D
i will never ever forget everyone's effort and support and love.

omg i actually was quite emo today during syf. i very nearly cried when the suonas played lei bie.
i think we were better with our emotions today, but not good enough for dhsco's standard yet.
quite a few ppl cried though. especially at the dizi part near the end.
yihui you played so beautifully it seriously is worth crying for. :D

anyway.
it's over.
finally.
dont look back, look onwards, leave the stage with no regrets.
i'm glad to say i did that.
it's time to move on.
we can only look forward and improve.
yup. DON'T LOSE HOPE.
today is certainly a memorable day in my life.

i got this urge to see him nowadays.
even if i cant actually see him, i wished i could be like him.
so carefree, devoid of stress.
so blissful.
he's someone whom i care about that i can look at without feeling any pain.
for once.

bella's house

2009-04-19T17:24:00.003+08:00

THIS WAS WRITTEN ON 19TH APRIL. IT WAS IN MY DRAFTS AND NOW I SHOULD JUST PUBLISH IT.

im at bella's house now, helping her with her schoolwork (:
i'm such an angel.
and she was like, 'xiaorong you're PERFECT!'

it all started out when we met up this afternoon at parkway macs to do pw.
then after discussion we ended up talking lots of crap and window shopping (just me bella and jo)
nic refused to come with us for some weird reason.
we suspected that he's going home to start on his pineapple diet, very likely. lol.
anyway then we had quite a lot of fun, and afterwards i decided to go bella's house to help her.
she was like 'xiaorong's a very nice person righhhhht jo? if she can help me with my bio abstract then she'll be PERFECT' etc.
at first i wasnt going to, cos i have chem project meeting afterwards at my place, but since miao declared she's not coming cos she's too far away, shimei mysteriously didnt pick up my calls, and kim cant make it, looks like the whole thing's cancelled.
and since i've never been to her house before, i was like why not
and here i am.
lol.
after fooling around and talking for like 2 hours, here i am.
i'm supposed to help her lah, but i can finish the stuff in a couple of minutes. (:
so no harm blogging.

NOTHING MATTERS EXCEPT

2009-04-16T22:16:00.001+08:00

i have many things to say.
but for now, i shall just say this.

I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW.
NOTHING.
NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EXCEPT FOR SYF.
SYF
SYF
SYF
SYF
SYF
SYF!!

SYF IS PRIORITY!

WE MUST GET THE GOLD WITH HONOURS!
MUST MUST MUST!

I DON'T GIVE A FREAKING DAMN ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE RIGHT NOW.

CO IS PRIORITY!
SYF IS PRIORITY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SWEAR BY IT.

fuckwhatamidoing.
fabian.
i seriously need you right now.
even though you have your own stuff to settle. but i can't stand it anymore.
i need you by my side right now, more than anything else.
i miss you ):

LIFE WITHOUT TAOKA, DAY 1.

2009-04-12T20:12:00.001+08:00

LIFE WITHOUT TAOKA, DAY 1.

this morning when i woke up, i felt very empty.
the house sounds empty.
then i realised that it's because taoka's gone ):
his naggy voice on sundays are gone. ahhh ):
now it's just me and xl.
so it's quite a sian morning and afternoon.
shan't go into details.

saw JOEY at BEDOK SOUTH today with A GIRL.
i shouldnt say anything more, in case i implement anything more. ahem.

after lunch i went home for a little afternoon nap (3 hours)
then woke up and used the com.

I AM FEELING SUPER EMO RIGHT NOW.
):
cos i was blog surfing when i was supposed to do the bio abstract.
then i came across lydia's (my dyb senior) blog.
i went back to see her 2005 posts.
and after reading I FEEL SUPER SUPER EMO AND SAD.
because she talked about dyb and how bonded they are etc, and i'm like feeling why we arent like that and wishing that i had times like that too.
then i saw charmaine online and this is how our convo went:

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:05):
no lah. just that i was reading lydia's blog. then i went to see the older posts when she was in sec 4 in 2005. then she was talking about dyb

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:05):
they were like so bonded lah ): im so envious

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:05):
ahhhhhhhh ):

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:05):
haha,

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:05):
actually we still okay ma

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:05):
compared to others

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:06):
but you should see them. they used to go out every friday together as a dyb to watch movies. EVERY FRIDAY EH.

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:06):
but now we busy!

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:06):
you going to watch concert with ME leh

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:06):
): and they keep hanging out. they always go vincent's house or go study together etc. AHH I READ LE I SO ENVIOUS

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:06):
soon

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:07):
haha, lets go to your house to study

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:07):
soon

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:07):
okay. promise okay. like after syf then we study together like crazy

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:07):
lol

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:07):
yay okay

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:07):
hahaha

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:08):
then she was like saying she was so close to the seniors. like from before mollie's batch to theirs. then she said that she's scared that next time the juniors wont be close to the seniors anymore.

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:08):
and not as bonded also. true eh.

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:09):
like now

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:09):
yeah ):

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:09):
CANNOT! we must stay bonded

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:10):
a bit hard

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:10):
our juniors arent close to us,

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:10):
like yulong

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:10):
okay not juniors

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:10):
and we arent that close to our seniors either ,

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:10):
OUR BATCH.

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:10):
yea, start from us

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:10):
haha

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:11):
yesterday we wanted to have dinner

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:11):
then in the end only me wenyi yueheng and shilun turned up

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:12):
yeah it's always the few of us. like that only.

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:12):
): aiyah. like that cannot one.

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:13):
we really must try hard to bond!

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:13):
then the juniors also

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:13):
10 more days, dont leave regrets

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:13):
omg yeah so fast ):

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:13):
sigh

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:13):
let's enjoy the last of our co days

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:14):
yes!

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:14):
:D

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:14):
MUST

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:15):
hahaha.

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:15):
but i think our peak was last year before passing down

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:16):
YES SERIOUSLY

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:16):
our most high and bonded time together

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:16):
chuguo period

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:16):
oh man ): i miss those days

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:16):
then everyday we go home from prac then complain about having to drag our cellos to mrt etc

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:16):
yea

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:17):
and our muscles from china trip

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:17):
lol

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:17):
i feel abit like crying

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:17):
):

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:17):
save the tears for syf, and passing down :D

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:18):
must smile, and enjoy our last days

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:18):
put in all we've got, and make miracles happen

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:18):
yeah. (: and i was thinking that

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:19):
before syf we can just talk about this kind of thing

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:19):
then we can cry and play well (:

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:19):
haha yea

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:19):
must okay (:

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:20):
yay yay yay

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:20):
yes :D

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:20):
before pei yang qing xu

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:22):
awwww

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:22):
i love you charmaine (:

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO Something's gotta give. says (PM 6:22):
lol

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:23):
yay

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:23):
i love you too :D

BRING IT ON!!!~ jiayou DHSCO CHARMAINE! power. says (PM 6:23):
10 days. lets do it :D

then i realised how much i love charmaine and the rest of dyb.
we were seriously so happy together when we went home as our dyb batch from the mount sinai days.
): I MISS THOSE DAYS.
I MISS THE TIMES WHEN WE CAN JUST WALK AND DRAG OUR CELLOS TO THE MRT, LAUGHING ALONG THE WAY.
BUYING WAFFLES AND SNACKS AND STUFF.
AND GOSSIPING ON THE MRT, GOING HOME LATE.
I WISH TIME COULD REWIND ITSELF, AND I COULD GO BACK TO THOSE DAYS.
okay, wait. what am i saying?
i loved those days, but i wouldnt give anything to go back.
because i've already been there, done that. it's not like i can do anything if im back there.
i didnt regret any moment of it.
last time, i would have seriously given anything just to relive those days.
that was my mindset.
but now i dont have any more wistful silly thoughts like that anymore.
i realised it's time to move on.
good days were over, but that doesnt mean you'll never have them again.
look onward. the future is bright.

i have to keep motivating myself.
especially now when life's extremely tough for me now.
and i don't have taoka on my side.
i dont have him too. i know that super clearly.
i have to jiayou myself.
just now when i was emoing after reading lydia's blog i was like thinking,
'okay wait until taoka gets back later then i can emo to him' etc
then it hit me.
HE'S NOT COMING BACK.
NOT NOW.
NOT UNTIL APRIL 24.
HE'S NOT COMING TO HELP ME THROUGH THIS PERIOD OF TIME.
I HAVE TO DO THINGS MYSELF NOW.
HE'S NOT GOING TO NAG ME TO DO MY WORK, OR ATTEMPT TO HELP ME WHEN I'M DISTRESSED.
HE'S NOT GOING TO DO ANY OF THESE THINGS.
he's probably doing well in ns now, he's a SCOUT. (:
and he most likely dont have the time to worry about me. he'd have to fend for himself.
):
have to constantly remind myself: this is life.
life's always changing, and you have to take control of it yourself, nobody's gna wait for you.
YOU JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT.
I'VE GOT TO DEAL.
DEAL.

okay.
i think i'm better at this already.
chill.
even though i feel like running to some big empty open space to shout my lungs out,
or to lean on him for comfort and tears,
i cant do any of it.
I CAN DO IT!
SELF MOTIVATION!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (warcry)

i've got another insight on life today.
so far, i've been giving myself lots of stress, trying to do best in everything i can.
because i've set my targets, i MUST achieve my goals.
that's what i've been thinking for so long.
good results. high music standards.
no disappointments.
it's always been these things.
but then. i've stop running.
i turned back and look.
i've been neglecting things that i thought i've caring for.
friendship, bonds.
groups of ppl that i care about, that i love.
not only my class.
dyb.
they're what keeps me staying in this sch.
and this year, i've spent so little time on them.
i have excuses like work, stress, commitments.
but the truth still stands. i didnt spend so much time together anymore.
that's why i promised myself.
after syf.
after the gold with honours.
i'm going to dedicate time to bonding with ppl i love and care about.
i'm DETERMINED.
not just ACADEMICS.
friends are just as important as academics. :D

charmaine, wenyi, shilun, xiaozhou, yueheng + rest of the batch,
I LOVE YOU ALL AS OUR YEAR 4 DYB BATCH.
karis, yihui, shimei, miao + rest of the clique,
I LOVE YOU ALL AS OUR CRAZY CLIQUE IN 4C! :D
i really really do. every single one of you.
i love you all till the end of time.
i'll never ever forget you all.
when it's time to leave of these behind,
i'll say to you all,
'thanks for all the memories you've given me these years. i'll never forget.'
and i mean it too.
:D

oh gosh.
sorry people for my sudden declaration of love.
it's the SENTIMENTALITY. I SWEAR!
and to answer bella's question,
i would die for each of you.
if the situation arises, i really would.
no hesitation.
i really dont mind.

okay i shall stop here for today. i'm going to exceed the time limit i compromised myself.
(supposed to stop at 8, changed to 8.15)
OKAY I OWE THE PICTURES.

and to end off,
10 DAYS TO SYF!
JIAYOU PEOPLE.
I HAVE FAITH THAT DHSCO WILL EMERGE VICTORIOUS AGAIN.
NO DOUBT!
:D

a proper update for once.

2009-04-11T23:46:00.002+08:00

i'm going to be nice and really take the time to post.
so stop complaining about me not posting and stuff.
things have been really crazy recently (so what else is new?)
and i'm emotionally and physically drained.
okay maybe not physically (considering i 'ponned' 2 weeks of pe)
but seriously. im completely drained EMOTIONALLY.

thanks miao and shimei for the emotalks.
i really needed them.
shall repay you guys next time. (:
love ya lots.

and lots of shit happened.
like mixing (and NOT blending) in with lians when David Archuleta came.
and finding out more stuff about people close to me, was quite surprised.
and all of us begin to think deeply about our futures ahead.
and and doing/rushing projects/assignments/datelines, and finding out stuff about ppl
that i dont wna know about in the process.
and figuring out lots of things for myself, thinking lots of things through.
and sleeping at 3, waking at 5, repeat a few times.

stuff like that.

it's certainly very exhausting.

i dont really wna talk about some of it now.

taoka went in army today.
i didnt cry.
but it felt super...i dont know how to put it.
sad and weird in a way.
it's like those days where i come home and see him hanging around at the com area are gone.
he moved on to a new chapter of his life.
and those days have just become memories.
we'll never ever again have times like that.
just thinking about it makes me feel super sad.
):
and now i cant rely on him anymore.
no more emo talks in the roof from 8pm to 12 midnight.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ): nononono i cant accept it. i really cant.
even though he'll be back in 2 weeks, it's a completely different thing.
i cant just come home and expect him to be there anymore.
the thought of that always brought tears to my eyes.
):
i'll miss those days. and i'll miss you. a lot. ):

another thing.
career day just passed and now all of us are like thinking which path we should take and stuff.
let's not talk about uni first.
talk about choosing subject combi.
so far, i have not met anyone who has a more guailan possible subject combi than me or joanna.
i thought mine is bad enough. MEP-ECONS-MATHS-HISTORY.
but jo's super GL. i wonder if she's actually serious about it.
ART-CHINA STUDIES IN ENGLISH-COMPUTING.
LOL.
another thing in my mind.
i wonder if i should transfer.
sounds stupid, but staying here will really minimize my choices.
i need to think this through.
moving on to uni, im considering whether to take the local path (most likely NUS) or the overseas path (US).
we practically killed damn lot of trees during career day when we took all the booklets/brochures/forms given to us by all the various organisations/unis.
i swear that the education system is biased towards the sciences.
all the scholarships requirements are science subjects lah can.
and most unis promote their science courses like chem and bio tech more than the arts lah.
what is this.
i'm an arts person for bloody hell's sake.
look at my future subject combi.
i cant do freaking maths or chem for nuts.
there is a serious need for more emphasis on HUMANITIES.
WE HAVE MORE SCIENCE THAN HUMANITIES PERIODS IN SCHOOL.
WHAT IS UP WITH THAT.
(exclude languages)
I HEREBY DEMAND THAT WE ARTS PEOPLE SHOULD GET MORE PERIODS DOING STUFF THAT WE'RE ACTUALLY GOOD AT,
AND LESS ON THINGS THAT WE SUCK AT
ESPECIALLY WHEN WE'RE NOT STUDYING THEM IN SENIOR HIGH ANYWAY
AND DEFINITELY NOT GOING TO USE IT IN OUR LIVES NEXT TIME EITHER.
okay. ENOOOOOOOUGHHHHHHHH. of academics.
seems like everyone's talking about them recently.
my head's gna spin.

oh oh oh. and one thing.
I LOVE HARRY JUDD! (:

i mean, come on. so much better than the other McFly members!
(:
HE IS NOT A SURFER DUDE. WHAT IS UP WITH YOU PEOPLE.
i admit he is not the fan favourite (dougie)
i mean, dougie's lovable.
but he's too. what you call it. immature.
he's cute and everything, but he's like a BOY.
harry's a gentleman. he's nice and cool and everything.
:D i swear.
okay this is weird cos i havent been so crazy over an idol for ages.
in fact.....who was i crazy over the last time?
i cant even remember. damn.
okay then now i think it's super cool cos we have like a mcfly fan club in our class.
Jo likes Dougie,
Han Ying likes Tom (wth?),
I like Harry,
and Miao likes Danny. (this one something wrong with her)
and together we form the Mcfly fanclub in our class! lol.
okay this is lame.
I ACTUALLY HAVE A FOLDER IN MY COM THAT CONTAINS ALL MY HARRY PICS!
anyway i was so excited when shimei came my house to do chem that day
and i showed her all my favourite mcfly videos! :D
and she was like 'okay now i know why you like mcfly now. if i'm you i would have too.'
SEEEEEEEE ogle at the power of Mcfly's aura! (:
forgive my extreme childishness that miao always display,
i need some happiness in my emo life also okay.

back to emoness.
STOP GIVING ME STRESS. PEOPLE.
TEACHERS. STOP GIVING US YET MORE ASSIGNMENTS AND PROJECTS
i mean, for the project thing i have nothing against doing with other people,
but it ALWAYS HAVE TO TAKE UP SO MUCH MORE BLOODY TIME THAN USUAL! angry. ):
AND THE ASSIGNMENTS.
WHAT'S UP WITH THE SCIENCES DEPARTMENT GIVING US WORDY ASSIGNMENTS TO DO?
i mean, even though i admit that the reports we have to do are damn short and easy for us humanities ppl to do,
it's weird to have to keep to the word limit, i'm more used to writing 10 times the amount. lol.
AND SCHEDULING BOTH CHEM AND BIO PRAC TESTS TOGETHER IN A WEEK
WHEN YOU JOLLY WELL KNOW THAT SYF IS IN A MATTER OF DAYS FOR MOST PERFORMING ARTS CCAS?
i already have ANOTHER HISTORY ASSIGNMENT to do.
assignments aside,
i have to meet so many different expectations from so many people.
cello teacher wants me to master scales (impossible, considering i only have time to prac 45min a week)
piano teacher wants me to brush up on all 3 pieces
the mep department expects me to present a 20 min repertoire in 4 weeks (BLOODY IMPOSSIBLE)
the pe department expects me to run 2.4 2 days before syf
WE HAVE TO GET THE GOLD WITH HONOURS
co wants me to go to the concert, while
my parents expect me to be there when my bro enlists.
YOU SEEE WHAT I HAVE TO FACE?!

hey. i'm just a human. a normal human.
AND IM STILL A MINOR. I'M TURNING 16 IN A MONTH FOR GOD'S SAKE.
what are you all trying to do to me?
cant you see the bloody fucking stress i have to cope with?
and i dont even have anyone that shares the same problems and situation as me,
so no one understands.
one of the 2 ppl in the world that i confide to has just left me for ns.
and the other one can't be there for me all the time.
and i also dont wna give him trouble.
i have to live up to all the expectations from everyone.
i can't just throw some stuff aside, nothing's unimportant.
it's different from last year. this year, EVERYTHING IS IMPORTANT.
it all concerns my future. i can't afford to lose anything right now.
i'm kind of on breaking point these few weeks.
i get angry easily, swear a lot a lot more nowadays
and also cry a lot more than i did in years.
sorry ppl, if i'm a lot more irritable than usual.
i lose my cool a lot easier than last time.
sorry sorry sorry. ):

i'm really grateful for friends. ppl like miao and shimei.
we all have our emo sides, and we've all seen through each other's bad times.
even though sometimes you can't help me, but it helps a lot when you listen.
i love you guys! (: really.
and i feel like i owe you something.
that's why whenever you're feeling really down, you can just tell me anything.
really. i'm willing to listen.
even when like im not very good at consoling people (along with teaching)
and im harsh on my words. lol.
but you get me. that's the point.
so yeah.

i realised that i'm a lot more sentimental than i was last time.
not that i wasnt before.
but recently i began to think a lot about memories and stuff that happened.
and i also start to see lots of things in a new light.
shimei claims that girls tend to be like that when we're in love.
all i can say is.
AS IF!
lol.
but i really started to dig out lots of old books and talk to old friends and stuff.
it's pretty weird.
someone else, please explain what is happening to me and come up with a decent theory for once unlike shimei's crappy one.

what i've always been afraid of have come true somehow.
i dreamt of the person.
i haven't seen him in more than 2 years, and somehow i just dreamt of him.
what the hell what the hell what the hell
i think i'm going crazy.
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
is it because a certain someone that resembles him just walked into my life not long ago
and turned it upside down in an instant incidentally?
even though he probably wasnt aware of it, and i only saw him for 2 days.
ARGHH WHY DO THESE THINGS HAPPEN TO ME OF ALL PEOPLE?
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

sorry for the long and rather emo post everyone.
):
to show my apology, i shall post some nice pics next time (:
yay end of my first post in weeks. :D :D cheers!

Love.

2009-04-09T00:29:00.001+08:00

i cant stand it anymore.

):

i love you, but i'm not in love with you.
i would die for you.

.....................if only you knew.

depression

2009-03-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

i am officially diagnosed with depression.
bye bye, world.
):

i need serious mcfly therapy.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
sorry fabian.

Dougie in Space!

2009-03-19T19:57:00.001+08:00

Star Girl MV. BUT IT'S DAMN CUTE WHEN DOUGIE'S TAKING ALL THOSE TESTS! CUUUUUUUUUUUUTE!!!!!

emo.

2009-03-09T20:38:00.002+08:00

i'm freaking tired right now.
i feel super emo right now.
i'm super stressed right now.

ugh.

the reason why i always avoid getting help from others no matter academically or anything else is because i don't want the burden of reaching expectations, or face disappointments. i really really hate that.

that's why, it's super stressful for me right now.
i really don't want you to feel disappointed for not doing well.
really.
it's bad enough that you saw how lousy i was.
and even when you said that it's okay, never mind, don't worry etc,
i still feel the burden.
i really really don't want to see you getting disappointed with me no matter how much you try to hide it.
i guess i care about you enough for me to put so much stress on myself.
you keep telling me not to apologise even though i gave you so much trouble.
i seriously feel....super helpless. super lousy and super disgusted with myself.
aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

sorry for the extremely emo post everyone. ):
someone is feeling really unwell and tired today.
and mentally exhausted. )):
sorry.

All About You

2009-03-05T19:55:00.001+08:00

this damn cute mv of one of my favourite McFly songs (:

HISTORY ESSAY DISEASE

2009-03-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

i declare that Kaiser William II had split personalities.

and at this rate (one source 500 words), my essay is going to far exceed the word limit of 1000-1200 words. -.-
just as well, im stuck at source B and currently stoning.

i think i got a disease. i just can't work on my essay and keep feeling super restless and doing useless crap. argh.
):

one for the radio

2009-03-01T17:36:00.002+08:00

McFly- One For The Radio

Here's another song for the radio

Life isn't fair for the people who care
Stick your nose in the air and that's how you go far
So go tell your lovers, your fathers and brothers
Your sisters and mothers how lucky they are

Light speed, out of my mind
I'm hurt, but I'll be fine
Put you fist in the air,
Raise your voice and declare,
Singing: We don't care,
(We don't care)
We don't care
(We don't care)

So here's another song for the radio
And here's another line from the heart
So don't pretend you hate us when you sing along
'Cuz we all look the same in the dark

L.A temptations, or music sensations
There's great expectations that weigh on our heads
So here's to the liars who dream and conspire
Against the admired, we hope you drop dead

Light speed, out of my mind
I'm hurt, but I'll be fine
Put you fist on your chest,
Raise your voice and protest,
Singing: We don't care,
(We don't care)
We don't care
(We don't care)

So here's another song for the radio
And here's another line from the heart
So don't pretend you hate us when we sing our songs
'Cuz we all look the same in the dark

We don't, we don't care
We don't, we don't care
We don't, we don't care
We don't, we don't care

Here's one for the radio
Here's one for the radio
Here's one for the radio
(one for the radio)
Here's one for the radio

So here's another song for the radio
And here's another line from the heart
So don't pretend you hate us when we sing our songs
'Cuz we all look the same in the dark

Here's another song for the radio
(song for the radio)
Here's another line from the heart
(o o o o)
So don't pretend you hate us when you sing along
'Cuz we all look the same in the dark
(from the radio)
'Cuz we all look the same, we all look the same in the dark
(from the radio)
'Cuz we all look the same, we all look the same in the dark

omg this song rocks-
BWAHAHAHAHA i managed to download ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL of McFly's albums just now, super shuang. put them all in my phone alr can slowly happily listen (:
anyway joanna,
i like mcfly for mcfly, not for dougie.
i like dougie, but i dont like him THAT much, so you can still claim him as yours hahaha.

omg McFly rocks
omg McFly rocks
omg McFly rocks
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.........lol you can guess why i'm blogging now.
cos i need to do my history essay. eeeeks.

long post.

2009-02-28T23:29:00.007+08:00

Random Quote from Zixuan last week:
'Oh my God i love the Triple Alliance!'

hi, yes im back and life's been great, and im having the time of my life right now. Whoots!

yeah right.
who am i trying to kid?

hello people, im still this emo classical music-loving weirdo, who recently just started to reignite her passion for pop music like any other normal person.
lol.
it's kind of hard NOT to do so, to tell the truth, when our clique just gathers around in class and start singing Circle or Crush like crazy.
or translating Circle to chinese and attempting to sing it on the way down to the canteen.

yes SO NOW I'M SO CRAZY OVER MCFLYYYYYYYY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
and not because of Dougie.
okay, i mean not just because of Dougie.

this is a super huge picture o.o
but he's got these super controversial looks though. that was one of my favourite images.
he looks good in the All About You MV too. (:
wait, but that's 2005...which is like 4 years ago.
OMG im super lag. -.-
but give me a break man.
im used to listening to music that was hot like 200-250 years ago all right?
McFly's music is surprisingly nice...for a band that is.
as in, their music sounds surprisingly like the oldies, with just this tinge of the Beatles in it.
it's good, i have to say.
so much better than those heavy metal bands that're bent on making you death,
or disgusting music by britney spears or raps or anything that is not even semi-tonal.
yay, so i love McFly (:
they totally saved the whole english (UK+US) music scene for me in my eyes.
i like other bands like Simple Plan, Yellowcard and All American Rejects too (:
so you can guess which kind of english songs that i like. haha.

anyway for McFly i only got their Just My Luck album, if anyone has their other albums, GIMME! (:

moving on.

OMGGGGGGGGG CO PERFORMANCE IS IN 4 DAYS!!!
IT'S MY LAST CO PERFORMANCE AS A MEMBER OF DHSCO (JUNIOR HIGH) SO MUST COME AND SUPPORT ME! (and yihui and eunice and charmaine and wenyi lah, but whatever. First priority is me right)
YES YES YES! :D :D
i sold 10 tickets this year :D thanks for all the support!
bring me chocolates/flowers! :)
anyway,
DISCLAIMER TO ALL AUDIENCES, PLEASE DO NOT JUDGE DHSCO AND CHINESE ORCHESTRAL MUSIC BY THE FIRST 2 PIECES. JUDGE US BY THE LAST PIECE! AND THE CHUIDA!
they say save the best for last right?
anyway the first 2 pieces are seriously too abstract,
and by abstract i mean lots of changing meters, keys, dissonance, sudden fluctuations,
and of course, the lack of tonal harmony. sigh.
all 20th century music traits.

okay i've clearly made my stand and given a warning to everyone for the 2 pieces!
don't come to kill me afterwards.

to all CO members,
IT'S THE LAST 4 DAYS LE. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!
year 4s, it's the last time we can perform in vch le. ):
let's make this Gong Yan a memorable one. :D
i know some of us are feeling sian and stuff.
we all kna so many scoldings and not all of us, frankly, can tolerate or tahan it.
just grit your teeth and hang on all right?
seriously. just do it for the sake of having fun, hanging around your co friends and yuezu.
the main purpose is to enjoy making music that people love and understand.
so basically i'm setting down all my grudges for this performance, and just decide to have fun and let it all out.
hope that everyone else can do the same.
dyb, LET'S SHOW THE WORLD THAT DYB IS THE BEST YUEZU WITH OUR QIZOU! lol.
okay mainly just prac for intonation accuracies. that's the most important! (:
dont let tls down!

..
sigh.
back to my usual moanings and complaints and emoing.
that's the main purpose of having a blog, no?
i dont know what's wrong with me.
i know that i should feel happy for having a satisfactory life right now,
and that we should cherish the rest of the time we have left together.
but i still can't help but feel emo and sad ): aww.
i have very little time left with my class, and even less time with dyb.
i seriously hope that i can rmb and cherish all the times we have together.
that's why i insist on going home with dyb on friday, even when my parents wanted to fetch me.
cos we didn't spend half as much time as last year together, when we used to take like at least an hour to go home by mrt.
i'm pretty glad we moved back, but the cost of it is spending less time with each other.
): in a way, i miss those days when we're all so far away from home.
and just not long ago i called shimei and turns out both of us were alr reminiscing the old days already, so fast.
awwwww. ):

and i miss US ): even im back for only 2 months? sigh.

and i'm so OLD alr ): sigh.
it was like just a few days ago that i was a Year one.
NOW IM ENDING MY JUNIOR HIGH LIFE ALR AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
that's damn old ):
and im a senior now.
last time i was a nooby guai kia junior who didnt know anything about co (and its evils).
pretty soon, all of us will be making life-changing decisions, and choosing different paths.
seems like everyone's discussing alr which uni to enter and stuff.
whether to go overseas or stay here for a degree, and which courses to take and what jobs we want, etc.
talking about it just makes me feel that im seriously older now.
sigh.

no point dwelling in the past, or worrying about the future now.
i try to take things one at a time.

speaking of which, i just took this test and i thought it was just some crapo thing,
but it turns out to be quite accurate :o gosh.

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Where Your life is Going You are a very determined and willful individual. You have strong set goals that you plan to reach no matter what. You may be an overachiever at times but that's because you want to be successful in your life. The greatest accomplishment for you is when you reach a high goal. However, you constantly worry if you're not good enough to do something, or if your life doesn't go according to plan. You worry a lot about your future, and if it will meet all your high criteria. Don't worry, with your determination, and hard work ethic, and organization chances are things will go according to plan.
Disappointment
Being Alone
Commitment
Losing Someone
Looked down on
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

have you ever had someone whom you really cared about, and you see him/her in pain and sadness,
and wna do something about it, but you cant and feel really helpless?
i feel like that....for so many people.
i can't do anything for them, we aren't even talking already.
but when i see them in pain....i feel like crying.
i feel just so bloody helpless. i can't do anything to help them.
now, i just wish them happy without me.

anyway to end off i shall be nice and post some pics (: yay!

dyb emoing at the hwa chong performance (:

we are all flexible musicians who can play any instrument! :D

guys fooling around in the co room -.-

and now for the US pics! (finally):

my mum, 2nd brother and i at grand canyon. Super cold and snowy! :D

family pic at seaworld, San Diego (2nd day)

REAL family pic. :DD

PICTURE WITH GOOFY AT DISNEYLAND!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :DD

PICTURE WITH MINNIE!!

OMG this super nice sign on the entrance of Disneyland! I love this sign!

UNIVERSAL STUDIOS ENTRANCE! with the famous globe!

random mummy attacking us LOL

JAWS! (:

..and that's about it. there's loads more, but im too lazy to update.
maybe next time.
ciao.

i still don't understand.
why'd you have to suddenly apologise to me?
why can't you just never come back, so i can just forget all about you and move on?
it's like,
you're running further away than i can catch up to you,
then suddenly you turn around and held out your hand for me.
for what?
so that we can start this wild goose chase all over again?
you're the only one that makes me hate myself. a lot.

MCFLY!!!! (:

2009-02-28T22:14:00.001+08:00

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2009-02-13T01:23:00.002+08:00

'For this is the day that I die.'

I realised that tears come much more easily now to my eyes than it used to.

2009-01-04T02:00:00.003+08:00

lol guess what.
i didnt finish my essay.
lol that was so expected.
anyway while waiting for my hair to dry (i just bathed not long ago), i decided to check out all my old posts all the way since sec 1.
and all i have to say is....

OMGOMGOMG.

i was so different! as in, my attitude, my writing style and all the crap are different.
my writing style was exactly the type that i HATE right now.

let's see.
let's use a sentence to give an example.

now: I want to go to the toilet. how do I get there?
last time: i wna go toiletz.............how to go ah?

maybe im exaggerating a little, but that fine line between 'civilised' and 'not civilised' has been crossed. okay im glad im so civilised now.
it's like i totally changed.
.........
ah well no use dwelling in the past.
it's something that i've been doing too long, and too often.

'I wonder if we'll ever be able to reunite with those precious things that were broken.'
i love this line.
it's so sentimental.
i love slice-of-life animes.
in Honey and Clover, the 1st episode, Takemoto narrates the internal self-struggle he has with himself.
'when i was a boy, i used to ride on a green bicycle. i would think to myself, "how far can i go on without looking back?" '

new year

2009-01-03T19:12:00.002+08:00

THIS BLOGGER WILL NOT BLOG ANYMORE UNTIL SHE FINISHES HER 4 PAGE MEP ESSAY.

THIS BLOGGER WILL NOT EAT ANY MORE SEE'S CHOCOLATES SHE BROUGHT BACK FROM USA.

THIS BLOGGER WILL FOCUS SOLELY ON DOING HER MEP ESSAY AND WILL DO A GOOD JOB OF IT WITHOUT USING THE INTERNET.

THIS BLOGGER WILL FINISH HER ESSAY BY 3/1/09.

THIS BLOGGER SHALL START HER ESSAY NOW.

..................
for those who dont know what is see's chocolates, knock yourself out.

hahaha. jealous?
you better start being nice to me if you want some just exclusively flown from the US.

okay now maybe i WILL start on my essay now.

on a side note, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! (:

nothing to do

2008-11-28T11:07:00.003+08:00

it's now 11am and guess what:
i have nothing to do.

going to sch in like an hour for co, not bringing my cello though.
parents not in sg, went to malaysia, so no transport to sch ):
that means that co starts at 2.30, i have to leave my house at least by 12.40.
sucks when you have to take ard 2 hours to reach school -.-
so now house's pretty empty, just my 2nd brother and the maid and me.
eldest bro not home yet, JC class chalet -.-
xl's upstairs playing MGS3 on ps2, so im back to the com.
just checked some FAQs on brave story out, and so far i've downloaded some episodes of honey and clover, ard 700mb of them. kind of worried that my harddrive isnt enough to store all the episodes. tried going to the sbs website to plan my route to hwa chong, with no results -.-
now stoning in front of the com, listening to some classical music.
anyone actually interested to know the better side of classical music (no canon in d and mozart and all that crap that pop songs try to imitate), i actually decided to compile a list of recommended classical music (yeah im actually that bored).
gna write some here, probably if im really really bored next time i would put it up somewhere in the blog. yawnz.
anyway enjoy:

List of Highly Recommended Classical Music (title/composer/artiste (if any)
1. Piano Trio No. 1/Brahms
2. Piano Concerto No. 2/Rachmaninov/Byron Janis, Antal Dorati, Minneapolis Symphony Orchestra
3. Piano Concerto No. 3/Rachmaninov/Byron Janis, Antal Dorati, London Symphony Orchestra
4. Goldberg Variations/J.S Bach/Murray Perahia
5. The Well-Tempered Clavier (both books)/J.S Bach/Angela Hewitt
6. Violin Concerto in E minor/Mendelssohn/Issac Stern
7. Cello Concerto/Elgar/Jacqueline DuPre
8. Má Vlast, cycle of 6 symphonic poems- No 2, Vltava (Moldau)/Smetana
9. The Four Seasons (esp Winter, not like overrated Spring)/Vivaldi/Nigel Kennedy
10. The Butterfly Lovers Concerto/forgot who's the composer

oh shit my eldest bro is back.

back for the once in a blue moon post

2008-11-27T20:39:00.002+08:00

a miracle has happened.
i'm back to post.
yes i know your jaws must be dropping right in front of the com screen just about now.
like, ZOMG!
xiaorong just decided to be a normal person and actually turned on the computer (and used it)!
yeah.

...
okay im feeling damn lame now so you can just ignore what i typed above.
anyway i decided to use the com for a few reasons:
1. nothing to do after dinner, dont want to watch tv (watched too much the past few days, i think i watched Over The Hedge on HBO family over 5 times in a row alr, plus daily dosage of Coffee Prince and Ellen and spongebob, etc.)
2. before fingers starts accusing and pointing me for not taking the free time to indulge in musical practitionship, i just had my cello lesson in the afternoon and practiced for more than an hour before that, and AFTER the cello lesson i prac piano until dinner. was enjoying sightreading Chopin's Funeral March when i am called to the dinner table. i know i am not a Chopin person but his Funeral March is simply too nice.....and easy to sightread.
3. pirate that i am, wanted to download some free anime or jap dramas.
4. wanted to prove that im a frequent blogger (i.e. i do not blog only once a month, the previous posts are date 1st Nov and 1st Oct subsequently)
5. wenyi did not reply my sms about the Hwa Chong co prac tmr. -.-
6. shilun smsed and ask me how to contact charmaine, as he stupidly is not aware that she is in korea right now. i told him the best solution is to call SIA and book a flight. she doesnt bring her phone overseas.
7. running out of entertainment purposes. played PSP this morning for a couple of hours, don't feel like reading as spent entire sat, sun and mon reading. (something's wrong with me.)
8. both brothers not at home. wheeeeee.
9. checking out my cello exam pieces on youtube. the Bach and the Chopin. turns out i really need to find really good accompanists. (argh dont remind me!)
10. grandma just on the TV to watch that dumb 9pm show, had to turn on the volume louder to listen to the chopin, damn her. :X

there, 10 reasons. (granted no. 10 is not exactly one, but....)
argh i hate to admit it, but the chopin is NICE! damndamndamn. anyone interested, it's Chopin Sonata in G minor, Op. 65: 3rd movt, Largo (Henle 495 or Henle 495/MDS or Peters EP 1928).
GY and JY made a bet on it before, hilarious when gy told me. hahaha. he got 29/30 for the piece, and bet jy that she cant score more than him. in the end she got 30. LOL!! i laughed my ass off when i heard that. and no im not going to bet jy that i'll score higher than her. -.-
the bach is incredible. seriously non-stop, the pianist has to be good. and has to know how to interpret bach. im not taking any more chances. and the piece is originally for Viola, so the one i saw is a violist. she's shaking and swaying like mad, i wasnt noticing until the camera zooomed in on her hahaha.

im sian. i know i said before that im gna finish all my homework before dec. well. it's the 27th and nope...im not close to finishing..yet. hey i think i did more than a lot of ppl okay. thing is, i dont have the mood to do it. i know, im emo all over again. so many things happened, at home and my own stuff happening. recently im gna move house soon so im quite busy packing and sorting stuff. plus co has lots happening like ezco and this hwa chong thing, and syf coming up in a matter of months etc.

besides the stress from my music (piano+cello, co's recent+upcoming performances, class performance coming up), im kind of struggling with my own emotions and feelings. sometimes i dont know what im feeling, or what im supposed to, and i know sometimes my actions are quite rash or unreasonable. im just feeling extremely restless and dont know what to do. worrying about the future, A levels, uni etc. maybe it's too early to think of the stuff, but i have to have some plans at least. i know not far from now i have to make a choice between 2 things i love. think some ppl might know what im talking about. so im worrying over it right now. sian.
i just injured another finger while playing cello today. the skin broke and peeled again like during ezco. sian. that's 3 so far in these few weeks. -.- damn painful.

i've been trying to forget ****** for so long. so bloody long it's driving me crazy. freak. why can't i just forget? i didnt need the pain and emoing he gave me for so long. why can't he be nice like *****? i want you out of my life. i wish i could stop thinking about you. damn. feel like killing myself.

oh btw today's wikipedia article of the day is cool.
it's about this gay politician. check it out. guy's Harvey Milk.

and on a lighter note, happy thanksgiving. (:

2008-11-01T19:42:00.002+08:00

freaking sian of my life right now.
even though exams over and shit,
there's still so much stress on me, i wanna die.
mainly it's just piano.
piano.
piano.
and more piano.
even though i love it, but i still feel damn burdened by it.

im feeling damn restless, even though i have so many stuff to do.
feel like finding my old conductor back and asking her to teach me conducting.
feel like finding my old teachers back, catch up with the old times.
still got a bunch of stuff to do also.
pack stuff, move stuff.
finish damned hol hwk before december.
bloody co and east zone camp.
class/dyb chalets.
shop for new wallet/bag/clothes.
build up stamina.

at first i thought that my november would be very free...
but thanks to damn cca and music commitments, it's completely not.
it's like normal school life. bloody shit.
my december is completely completely booked up.
first week: co + most likely packing/unpacking
2nd: class chalet + fly to US
3rd: US
4th: come back, christmas, dyb chalet until the 31st.
freak that's how i occupy my last days of the year.

this year passed so fast.
so many things happened, so many hopes lost, but also dreams are achieved.
each year is more unpredictable than the last.
it hadnt been easy for me, but im trying to live with it.
this is life, i guess.

i have another movie to add into my favourite movie list.
it's quite an old movie.
Meet Joe Black. 1998.
i rmb watching it the night before the last day of school on hbo. 28 oct.
i watched it until 2am! probably the only time i slept so late before the last day of school.
ahaha.
it's a damn good movie.
i like it not because of the actors, (young Brad Pitt, EC!!!)
but the idea.
what does it feel like to be a human, when you're Death?
the story's something like.
this guy is going to die, and in exchange for more days to live, Death makes a contract with him.
he shows Death around in life, living like a human, introduced him to his home life, his company, to everyone as Joe Black.
incidentally, Joe falls in love with the guy's daughter during this trip which he claimed as his 'holiday'.
actually it's far complicated than that, but i cant exactly sum the whole thing up without spoiling anything.
i probably gave as good a sypnosis as hbo.

anyway,
the actors are good, the lines are fabulous.
the soundtrack's great as well, an added bonus.
i can almost recite the lines as i watched it the 2nd/3rd time.
i like it when Quince and Joe are talking before the party, in the day at the (makeshift) bar.
when Joe asks how does Quince know that Allison loves him.
Quince says that cos she knows the worst thing about him and she doesnt mind it.
and the scene went something like (not exact cos i dont know the lines exactly):

Joe: How did you meet? (asking about how Quince and Allison met)
Quince: Well, i was this world-class loser and she's just the happy rich girl....and she took me in. (laughs bitterly)
Joe: But Allison loves you?
Quince nodded.
Joe: How do you know?
Quince: because she knows the worst thing about me and it's okay.
Joe: what is it?
Quince: it's not something...it's an idea..........it's like, you know each other's secrets. yeah. like each other's deepest darkest secrets.
Joe: deepest darkest secrets?
Quince: yeah....and you dont mind. it's like you know everything about each other and you dont mind. You're free! You're free to love each other completely, totally. Just no fear. So there's nothing you don't know about each other, and it's okay.

there's no straight and definite meaning of love in this world.
but this movie provided it.
and i think it's good.
it's meaningful.
this movie contains everything i live for, and live by:
the importance of life, death, love, family, forgiveness, and everything else that matters.
love's not the focus, it's life. it's the principalities of life.

the meaning of life is summed up in this quote by an old woman talking to Joe in the hospital, who's dying and know that Joe is Death:

'It nice it happen to you. Like you come to the island and had a holiday. Sun didn't burn you red-red, just brown. You sleep and no mosquito eat you. But the truth is, it bound to happen if you stay long enough. So take that nice picture you got in your head home with you, but don't be fooled. We lonely here mostly too. If we lucky, maybe, we got some nice pictures to take with us.'

she's saying that life sometimes is lucky for some of us. but reality remains and that everyone will soon die. if we're lucky, we're able to remember what life is like, the bits and pieces, the good side of life, and take it with us when we die.

argh, there's just too many nice lines in this movie. you just have to go watch it for yourselves.
even though it received rather mixed reviews and it's not too successful, but i think it's a great movie.
those ppl who know me well know that i dont compliment things and take favourites easily, and im a frank person who judges everything with my own opinion.
so you should know how highly i regard this movie.

i shall end this post with one of my favourite quotes in the movie:
Will: It's hard to let go, isn't it?
Joe: Yes it is, Bill.
Will: And that's life... what can I tell you.

in less than 2 weeks,
hopefully i can see you again.
i hope you can keep to your promise this time.
i pray.

2008-10-01T20:02:00.002+08:00

I recommend watching F1.
not only are the races amazingly exciting and unpredictable,
the drivers are all EC. i mean it.
i mean Nico Rosberg.

what the hell am i doing. blogging when EOYs are less than 48 hours away.
wtf.

today we talked about what is the ideal companion.
xy asked me whether it mattered.
i thought for a while.
'not at all.'

2008-09-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

I declare myself crazy over F1.
Lewis Hamilton!
Kimi Raikkonen!
Nico Rosberg!
:DD

what a way to start mugging.

just a little more.
silently, i prayed that maybe we'll meet once again.
this thing called love?
i hate it.

2008-09-28T16:43:00.002+08:00

What happened to you?
Why'd you change so much?
You arent like this last time...
I miss the old you.

someone told me before that in this world, nothing is black and white. everything is grey.
well, that's wrong.
the piano's still black and white.

Randomness.

2008-05-05T00:43:00.000+08:00

my blog had been dead. this is not unexpected, of course...constant visitors will know about that.
im sorry and i will TRY my best to post, erm, constantly. as much as i can.
the past few weeks have just been super busy, to say the least.
and so much had happened, yet again.
time for more entires of my miserable life.

i dont understand music.
i live for it, but i dont understand it.
ha ha.
such irony.
those who knowme should know how crazy about music i am.
it's one of the few things that can hurt me deeply.
if i managed to produce good music for once, or im complimented, i of course will be happy.
but if i didnt manage to produce satisfactory work i would be emoing away.
yeah, for those who dont know, now you know whats up when you see me emo.
i hate creating noise. i want to create music.
i hate me and my lousy technique.
i hate being the lousiest of my teacher's elite students.
i dont want to go to the mass class, cos her other students will know how lousy i am and i will be demoralised by their playing.
i want to improve my technique so badly..
crap.
im sprouting crap.

sorry if im being a bit random, but i went to the se concert with dilys.
i'd say it was good, and the bad parts i wont mention any at all, for respect for the players.
the trio rocked, with rodion, samson and kaili.
and kaili rocked at vanhal. (:
the encore is good too. sometimes i wish co isent so formal.

but that night i was wistful.
as i sat there looking up at people playing.
darren, meihui, rodion, and the others, all playing the violin.
my childhood dream.
last time, i remember telling my mother i want to play the violin.
she forbidded me, saying that playing it my fingers will hurt.
i guess she wanted me to focus on piano.
and i focused, maybe because i believe i'll perhaps wipe off that dream after loving piano.
perhaps i took up cello as a replacement, being the closest thing i can get to playing the violin.
maybe i thought that if i loved cello enough, i would like it more than the violin.
but seeing people up there, who can play both the violin and the piano..
well, im envious.
im envious that people get to live my childhood dream, while i sit a distance away watching them bow away.
maybe i thought that over the years i'll get over it.
but now i know.
i will never fulfil that particular dream.
that childhood desire.
never.

sad movies, or touching life stories will never make me cry.
but music will.
Final fantasy IV's main theme just managed to make me shed tears.
it sounded so sad.
i realised i like sad songs.
not emo songs, just sad ones.
like koizora's ost, koh otani's aile grise and shadow of the colossus soundtrack,
or even the Kingdom hearts and final fantasy soundtracks.
they arent classical music, but they are still instrumentals, some orchestra songs.
love them.
i want to show the world that classical music is not the only instrumentals that can sound nice.
soundtracks can sound equally nice too.
i want to prove the world that a piece need not be difficult or virtuosic to sound nice.
not at all.
i believe that simple songs that everyone can play, that's the most ingenious.
a simple melody that sounds pleasant to the ear.
pure genius.

went to the esplanade concert of Liang Zhu on sat. it was good. i love the butterfly lovers concerto, it's so beautiful.
Highly recommended!
those who insulted the story of Liang Shan Bo and Zhu Ying Tai, should just go listen and try to appreciate it.
my favourite violin concerto in the world-even when compared to western classical music.

another thing.
im sorry im so emo nowadays.
or if my blog sounds so emo.
i just...lost myself in work, music and my own thoughts.
one day, something happened.
i couldnt control my anger, nor any of the negative thoughts flowing out of me.
it was before school, when i rushed to class and tried to calm myself down.
people thought i was sleeping, but i was controlling myself to the maximum.
i hate feeling like that, feeling so negative yet so powerless.
so i remained immobile for a long time...before completely regainly back my control of myself.
it was the worst feeling i felt for a long time.
i need to do some soul searching.
is there something else being left out in my life?
give me an answer-or i'm lost forever.

2008-03-25T20:46:00.002+08:00

i'm really frustrated.
so many things, going crazy and out of my mind.
i'm sorry to everyone which i had been burdening recently.
sorry shimei for ranting on you, for asking you to do so many favours.
sorry.
sorry.
sorry.
you're just like the only person i can rant to now.
sorry for burdening.
argh.
im sorry.
im tired. i feel dead.
argh.
whenever im trying to do stuff, you would occupy my head.
that's what i hate about having someone close to your heart.
i hate having the burden of wanting see the person, or thinking about what the person is doing.
i hate it.
but i cant stop it.
argghh.
also, i have absolutely no confidence of my music.
at all.
after since my exam.
i know that everyone keep telling me to dont be nervous, be confident etc,
but i tried. and i cant.
i really really tried.
i tried to get calm and everything, but somehow it wasnt going the right direction.
i screwed.
and i havent the heart to tell you.
you're the own who did the most to boost my self esteem.
and everytime i see your sms, i would smile.
why do i have to be like that every single time?
i lost confidence in my own ability to create music with my 2 hands.
i lost all of it.
i suck.
do i even qualify to be called a musician?
arghh.
i know.
i must have confidence in myself.
so after the exam, i just focused more on CO than anything else.

dhsco gong yan was a success.
i know we had our share of mistakes, but the point is everyone enjoyed and loved it.
im surprised at my friends' actions and support they gave me.

thanks shermaine, for the presents you gave us. even if you totally missed our items. -.-
but thanks a lot for your support!

thanks ruixin and deborah for the bouquets of sunflower/roses each.
i didnt know you were serious about bringing it. haha.

thanks jiayao for the 4 ferrero rochers. ahaha. i know you gave them to me cos i kajiao you like hell. haha. but thanks anyway (:

after receiving so many gifts and compliments, i finally got back my confidence in performing, even though it's different. but for the first time, i felt that people were proud of me, in e music i help create with others. i love performing even more now. (: thanks.

that day left me with bittersweet memories.
it was sweet because my friends brought back my performing confidence, and i love to perform.
it was bitter because you aren't there. you couldn't see what i achieved that night.
gongyan came, and gongyan went.
life went back to normal.

after masterclass at TJC today, i went home and tried to play some Chopin.
the truth is, ever since that day, i haven't touched my piano at all.
i didnt have the courage or confidence to touch it.
i was scared.
in the end, i played until i was so exhausted, i fell asleep.
it's a long time since i played until im so tired.

or it may just be that im so tired nowadays.
i feel dead.
and sad.
just very tired.
i feel like i dont want to care for anything.
even music, i hesitate now before i embrace.
why is life so hard for me now?

now, i find myself liking classical music more and more.
i start to think that pop songs, even ballads, are so noisy and crappy when compared to instrumentals.
soon, i think i'll just delete all of my songs in my mp3 and fill it up with instrumentals.
what bliss.

just when i thought i can have some afternoons off due to gongyan finishing and no co,
msk approached me and wanted me to dedicate half an hour of life to private tuition with him a week.
i know that co's off now.
but it's only for 2 weeks.
1, actually, if you count this week as over.
do i even have the time to focus on that subject?
do i even have time for schoolwork?
or even the time to rest?

...........
maybe it's true.
im spending too much time and energy to my music.
is this going the way of my downfall?
.
.
.
.
.
music. something that i would give up anything for.
also something that could destroy me ultimately.
it's the only thing that can motivate me
and also the deadly weapon that could kill me.
.......
it's already on the path of killing me.
but i love it.
how can i love something that is killing me?

..........imissyou.
untiltheendoftime.

thoughts....

2008-03-20T21:30:00.002+08:00

thinking about the past year....
what i have gone through...
so much have changed..
since my last post.
i have changed.
so many things happened.
loved ones died,
people moved on,
everything you used to know, now gone.
now...i find myself not able to remember things of the past.
it became a blur.
my world came tumbling down, everything changed so much.
maybe it's just me.
maybe i dont want to move on.
it's like seeing everything in front of my eyes vanishing.
when i stretch out my hands, everything is gone.
let me rant.
just for this once.
i may never get the chance to do it again.

i was crazy, after things went wrong for me.
i couldnt sleep, i couldnt concentrate on anything.
i cnt be bothered to study, even for exams.
that's probably why my grades dropped like hell.
it was like being in a trance.
it went on for months...and months.

on the outside.
i guess i was acting normal.
no one seems to think that something is wrong about me.
i laughed, made jokes...tried to make everyone around me happy.
i guessed it worked. cos no one noticed that im all wrong.
everyone is happy. im not.
still, i hid everything. whatever i felt, i hid it.
the massive burdens i have to carry.
his death,
the many expectations people have for me,
my music,
especially you who occupied my thoughts.

those who i confided in would know how hard i was struggling.
but evidently, no one knows what i really am like.
i still rmb, the 1st and last time i cried in class, everyone said 'i cant believe you are crying.'
yeah, i appear as the type who never cries, eh?
i guess i appear too cheery to everyone.
charmaine said before, 'you will sad one meh? you always very happy one lor.'
haha, i made no comment.
occasionally i'll break down..but i'll do it quietly, so no one will notice.
and no one did.
im so good at acting happy, no one suspects what i really feel.
im glad that im not giving any worries to anyone.
those who i confided in tried so hard for me to move on, but im stubborn. i thought i couldnt. so i didn't.
i thought i will never ever move on, for a long long long time.
ever since you left.

this went on....since last year...all the way to this.
until very recently.
someone whom wasn't very significant in my life, stepped in.
he made me move on, when others couldnt.
he made me...forget about you for a while.
eventually...he made me forget about you completely.
but i wasnt sure.
after a friend showed me how well you are doing...
then i realised.
i dont feel pain whenever i see you any more.
i was scared that i will, but it didnt come.
im finally free.
i finally moved on.
i was so happy.
finally...after so long.
it was like emerging from the surface of a pool of water after being submerged in it for so long.

i have to thank him.
and shimei also, for hearing me rant so many times.
i realised i have close friends i can rely on now.
like dyb to give me happiness, shimei and xiaowei and the others for me to feel comfort for, and old friends to catch up to.
im happy with co, especially dyb now.
i love to perform, and i look forward to gongyan.

i love music, and i love making music.
i love piano, and cello.
that's why i've been trying so so hard, i want to make good music.
i want to let ppl hear my music.
the sound of my finger pressing a key.
the sound of the bow on a string.
i love every second on it.
i'm willing to sacrifice anything, for music.
i love it too much. haha.
my love for it is indescribable.

.
.
.

on a lighter note, im glad my exam's over, now i can prepare fully for gongyan!
2 days away only! cant wait! haha.
people probably think im crazy, and i should feel nervous or something but the thing is, i love performing! (: especially in an orchestra!
must go and support me and dhsco ok! (:
im sorry for the horribly long and emo post.
next time i shall be more happy!
i try, ok?

i like you trying to boost my confidence.
like what you told me, i'm trying to be positive!
thanks for everything the past few days.
you turned me up now...all these,
is thanks to you.
i want to see you.
if only, i can.
i miss you. ):

new post...

2007-04-08T10:38:00.000+08:00

so im finally back for yet another post.
many things have happened since the last time i posted.
many many things.
>_>
anyways, now im alone at home, due to my sudden serious illness...
a fever of 39.3c.
i wonder if i can still go sch tmr.
whatever.
*coughs*
i spent abt 18/24 hrs ytd in deep sleep.
going off to sleep again later anyways.
all thanks to the filming on friday lahh.
we have to film in the hot sun for an hour.
for the stupid chinese project.
quite a few complications that i wont mention here, but we manage quite well.
i think bra and others did mention abt it in their blogs for sure.
sian...
those vague memories we shared, im jus trying to hold on to them...
but all these are just in vain.
i will never forget that day.
well in my sickness, i tried reacquainting with some old forum members.. yepp. quite successful at any rate.
chatted well with one of them, she sent over some songs that i like so much. ^^
like utada hikaru's flavor of life-ballad version, as well as some arashi's songs.
haha. =))
and well, for now, im jus trying to recuperate as soon as possible.
siann...
now i had to take 3 pills plus 7.5ml of liquid medicine everytime i intake medicine, which is abt 3 times a day.
i nearly exceeded my restrictions against panadol, which is 8 a day. i took like 6.
and while im lying down on the bed ytd, received so many smses from ppl. why is it that when i nv sms ppl send me so many msgs and when i wanna sms ppl they nv sms me back? irritating.
alex is online. i went to his blog which he put as his personal message. got another session of deja vu. from the 2nd or 3rd post onward...
i had my freaky share of deja-vu, thanks.
the thing abt deja-vu is that u cant rmb until u c the actual thing itself. until den, u seem to be unfamiliar with the thing itself. afterwards, everything comes to u.
that's scary.
and the thing is, i've been having that since i was a kid. >_>
oh yeah, and we changed sitting positions now. im sitting at xw's previous seat, which is not that bad, cos i pretty much have my own privacy there as well. beside me on the right is dilys, which is good, cos she's smart what, den can copy from her XD
and behind me as usual is ruixin. beside her is andrew. quite fun. in front of me is >_> yangshen. as long as he doesnt irritate me he's ok. he shows me the method of how to do those coloured cube thingys. beside yangshen is kimberlyn. she's ok, cos she's also my aural partner. me and dilys and her can discuss mep any time of the day.
my only agony is that whenever i wanna turn ard to talk to my first wife i have to c a pretty chiobu face behind her. she's so pretty that all i can do to prevent myself from serenading her is to remain in my seat. no cannot, i must be very faithful to my wives. or they will get jealous.
i wonder though, if i really went to sit with the chiobu what will happen every day.
everyone i discussed opinions with agreed that it will be pretty interesting.
haha.
WW3 everyday, i dont actually mind.
more fun in life that way.
owww, my damned headache.
i think i have to go and rest now. i cant even hear properly. >_>
go and slp and emo time.
im not the only one who emos though.
i swear, we should jus go and hold an emo competition in the class.
c who emos the most.
i wonder who will win.

still trying to hold on to you.
why do u have to 'run away'?
what did i do wrong?
i wanna go find you again.
but now i dont even have the energy to run.
and u wont even turn to me.
what the heck did i do wrong?
aww crude, i dont even know what to do anymore.
whether rain or shine, whether the weather is hot or cold,
i will stand here and wait.
many ppl come and go, asking me to go
and never look back.
but i told them i have to wait
no matter what.
cos i believe you werent gone yet.
i can still stand and wait.
and dozens of ppl have passed this way.
still no sign of you.
if there's anything i can do for you,
im willing to do it for u.
even if it results in my heart breaking
into a million different tiny pieces.

Reality.

2007-03-12T17:43:00.000+08:00

the past few days are like nightmares.
thinking of you.
always thinking of you.
the tears for you.
suddenly it all leaked out.
what did i do wrong?
seriously.
i dont know.
my heart bleeds.
i cry.
i have to stop emo-ing like this.
i have to get a grip.

ruixin.
thanks for trying to cheer me up.
really.
i know u keep saying he's not worth it.
i know u keep saying he isent worth my tears.
thanks for that.

cleve.
u helped me the most.
u keep trying non-stop to cheer me up.
im really really grateful for that.
really.
u keep trying and trying.
non-stop.
i really really wanna thank you for that.
i wont let u down.
really.
i'll get well soon.
promise.

onii-chan.
thanks for trying to help me out.
we both know it's useless now.
thanks for giving me ur shoulder to cry on.
and seeing me through this painful process.
u see im suffering inside.
im sorry if i worried you.
u dont have to try and help me anymore.
it's ok.
=))

without the 3 of u, i seriously wouldnt know what to do now.
love u all. really really much.
i wont cry anymore.
i'll try to move on.
thanks for all your help and encouragement....
i'll never forget what u all did for me...
never.

this is the painful reality.

update...

2007-03-11T14:32:00.000+08:00

yet another update now. wowies. i really am getting bored.
waiit....waiit....my leg...cant move...lawls...ok..it's normal now.
wow.
i cant pretty much figure wad im up to now...
yet another PMS session incoming, no please...
we had this stupid 2.4km run on thursday...
which each bathch had 3 classes running...
we were running with jiahui's sis class and *ahem* guanyang and weicheng's class as well.
surprising? not really, actually...
im not built for stamina, nor speed...and i can say that im deforming physically.
literally.
whatever.
i hyperventilated after my run, den calmed down a little.
after taking a drink, i start feeling unwell again.
feel like puking up, but feel like keeping it in. headache building. wow.
ruixin forced me to go change during recess, but after that i can barely move, so i jus lay downed on the table.
during history, we r supposed to do groupwork, but i guess i jus put my head on the table like a dead person.
i din wna become the merlion of the class.
ruixin escorted me down to the sickbay, after which i called my mum to fetch me.
she also brought down my bag for me. thanks, girl.
afterwards fiona was brought in.
she hyperventilated as well..
hers was a bit more serious den mine.
poor girl. hope u improve in ur health.
tho i can hardly say much abt mine.
sian.
i went home and practically flopped onto the bed and fell into an unconscious stanze.
woke up ate lunch.
shit. i missed the chinese test.
i guess i need a retake, or a 0.
fine.
ruixin said it was siva's fault.
we were supposed to run rounds each PE lesson, with an increase of a round more each week.
but we nv did it anyways.
it was supposed to help us build up stamina...a little.
so ruixin said it was his fault.
she nv had any probs anyways.
i smsed cleve about it.
he said that it was the teachers' fault that they never let us do warm up.
i pretty much din have the energy to sms or do anything after that.
but i managed to go sch the next day.
whatever, i dont rmb details.
saturday...
it was pretty ok..
ah, wait.
i rmbed.
woke up late, too groggly to notice the time.
i know it's late.
mum wanted to go bugis to shop for dad's clothes.
xy and i tagged along.
we spent a long time looking for a parking space.
ate lunch at the beach road hawker centre.
by that time, it's alr near 4.
wow.
beef noodles.
thank god i dont believe in god.
haha.
din really do anything much at bugis.
went kino, but still din manage to find a copy of DeathNote book 13.
sian.
afterwards is where the fun begins.
went to Suntec for the IT thing.
thing. lol. whatever.
first went to the ps3 booth.
it was lame. -_-
there's some ppl playing some racing game..
and a kid playing sonic.
yeah, sonic.
unbelievable.
we got off here pretty soon.
off to the 4th floor.
walked ard.
i was interested in the apple and creative areas.
no hope in getting anything i want at any rate, so move on.
went to 6th floor.
we spent abt....4 or 5 hours there? wow.
it was freaking crowded, there must be at least 10k ppl in this area?
im not kidding.
whatever.
I SAW KELVIN.
he is sooooo cute.
he's working for imation. wearing a green jersey.
xy confirmed it was him.
aww man, he's really really cute.
wonder where he went.
haha.
walked around for a long long time.
we spent most of our time on this floor.
xy and dad wna find an external hard disc.
from Seagate, i guess.
dad wna find an external dvd burner.
we found one.
and we got the external hard drive as well.
a 160 gb one.
it isent exactly very big, but the bigger ones require an external power source.
so we got this one.
i actually wanted a SanDisk mp3.
it's quite popular.
but it's quite ex, for just a 8 gb one.
boo. i want a bigger one.
dad said i can have a creative one.
fine, i'll go down later to find one.
haha.
i rmb memorex had this session when they're giving out free gifts.
xy n i swapped one each.
it's a plastic transparent green container with (what i suspect) sweets.
nv opened them though.
we kept walking ard in circles.
until it was abt 8 plus.
woah.
something happened.
xy decided to take up the PSP offer (316 bucks with 2 gb memory stick)
crackable version, i might add. (3.1 or something.)
haha.
he is sooo freaking excited when the guy took out the contents and explained to us the stuff.
need to charge 6 hours first.
and den he went on to buy a cover.
he took so long just to buy a cover.
anything.
i was itching for MY creative mp3/4.
so i jus followed them ard everywhere, to the seagate booth, blahblahblah.
by den it was alr 8.50, i had only abt 10 mins to rush down.
which i did, with mum only.
thank god, those 2 r still upstairs discussing abt the seagate harddrive.
i got a 60gb black creative zen vision m.
YES.
finally, FINALLY,
i got something that fulfills my needs.
enough space for my soundtracks, pics, backup space, videos.
haha.
i forgot the price.
it's...499 or 599 bucks.
so cheap.
i rmb when we bought the first creative zen vision m (white) 30 gb, it was like 599 or 699 bucks.
c the difference.
we were happy.
correction.
xy is happy.
dad is happy.
im happy.
mum is happy.
xl...
no luck man.
he's off for job week camp.
we called him when we're in Gelare for ice cream after the IT show.
he barely made 30 bucks today.
poor dude.
Jiayouz chubby.
ur sis is here to support u.
maybe if u help me do my hw i'll give u 10 bucks? haha.
xy is glad he quitted scouts.
ahaha.
after ice cream, went carrefour to get some apple pie.
we got 2.
yay.
by den it was abt 11 plus, and we went home.
to tell the truth, i wasnt exactly feeling very well.
i was dead tired.
i guess i havent exactly recovered yet.
*sigh*
i struggled to open the universal adapter for my creative charger.
i think it was like 1am before i got to sleep.
that was ytd.
today is sunday.
got woken up at abt 8 plus.
shit. still want me to do taichi.
whatever.
xy's leaving for his MJC class chalet at 11.
he wanted to lie in before den.
i woke him up at abt 10.50.
jus need abt 10 mins to reach marine parade.
so today, im a loner.
until tmr, den he'll come back.
in the meanwhile, i just switched on the com and printed out my maths hol assignments.
uncle beng jus smsed me say he's busy, no tuition today.
hmm..
PS2 playing spree?
haha.
no prob.
i have it all to myself now.
haha.
was bored, so i wanted to give a minor update now.
din manage to find a good enough KH skin.
sian.
i guess i'll jus maintain this one.
whatever.
i couldnt find myself anymore these days.
on some days im uber-cold.
den..
suddenly i'll get all emo.
and find myself trying to destress.
like what i did that day.
ruixin knows.
the first thing i did after sch was to take out that toblerone bar.
and i got the whole thing down.
it wasnt enough.
me and ruixin went to 7eleven.
dao-ed irene, pearlyn and gang.
i couldnt stand it.
bought slurpee.
i practically stuffed myself.
ruixin knows im emo-ing.
im hurting inside.
she tried talking to me.
but she wouldnt understand.
no one would understand.
u wouldnt know how much i suffered for u.
of cos.
u wouldnt even care.
since that day u turned and ran.
i tried to catch up.
but u wouldnt give a damned.
i can only stand and stare as u whisked away.
i din have the heart to go after u any more.
jus walk away.
get out.
yepp.
wow.
c how the emo-ing goes.
>_>
must get a grip on myself.
passing through all these stressful times though, i guess i must really owe it to Cleve.
he helped me out pretty much.
just for you,
thank you so much.
i really appreciated ur help.
sometimes when im down,
you're the one who made me smile.
u told me u dont wna c me like this.
u told me u wanna c me smile.
and u told me to keep out for my health.
so thank you,
for all these times.
=)
haha.
sounds weird.
but whatever.
just had a sucky lunch.
back to planning hol schedule.
argh.
update more later ya? XD

Bad ass quizzes...

2007-02-25T10:40:00.001+08:00

im so freaking bored, i went and did some bad-ass quizzes, and this is what i get.

my god, these are so freaking lame. lol.

a new update

2007-02-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

so it seems im back...for a short update since so many freaking ppl complain abt me not updating...
this blog is just a secondary thingy...so i dont really care abt it....
except for the tagboard, apparently, where it's more active...did i say it's very entertaining? im always highly amused at these things....this world likes to revolve ard without my noticing it....
hhaa...

anyway....i wanna blog abt this convo i just had with mr andrew fung, grp leader of grp3 lsp.
which is the point of the convo.
cos we r supposed to hand in the bloody lsp brochure which *he* lost the slip of paper and the rest of the grp cant work on.

we were discussing what to do, research, blahblahblah. den he send me some info, told me to edit.
but got what to edit? nothing. useless.
anyway i told him i'll send an email to everyone of the grp. after i informed him i sent everyone, he ask if i got edit. den i say no. den....

Andrew says:
fuck u
Andrew says:
nono
Andrew says:
phuck u
Andrew says:
must be more civilised
Andrew says:
phuck u
Andrew says:
call u edit u dowan
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
lol
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
phuck
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
so cool
Andrew says:
i hate u rite to the core of the nucleus of my bone cells in the core of of my bone marrow which is rite in the middle of the core of my bone!!
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
at least i made the effort to type out a small report and send to all of them
Andrew says:
simi report
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
provided the attachments as well
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
lol i like ur line
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
must save it down
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
i hate u rite to the core of the nucleus of my bone cells in the core of of my bone marrow which is rite in the middle of the core of my bone!!
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
so cool
Andrew says:
simi line simi rreport
Andrew says:
wtf
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
lol
Andrew says:
i really hate u rite to the core of the nucleus of my bone cells in the core of of my bone marrow which is rite in the middle of the core of my bone!!

[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
hahahhahhahahhahhahaah
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
i'll be sure to add it in to my list of quotable quotes
Andrew says:
i really hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
woah
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
*adds*
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
heh
Andrew says:
tell me wad freaking report did u write
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
nah
Andrew says:
tell me or i really will hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
[[ EisEnmEte0r ]] Anniversary [[ DHSCODYB ]] LSP Grp 3 members, check ur email for project details says:
i tell u, im laughing in front of my lappy now
Andrew says:
aAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH
Andrew says:
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Andrew says:
OOO
Andrew says:
i ust recorded an out of tune canon
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i shall repeat it and make u think it's not funny anymore and let u tell me wad report u wrote
Andrew says:
it's SPAM TIME!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at th
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!

Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at th
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!

Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!

Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
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Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!

Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!

Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
how?
Andrew says:
not enuf?
Andrew says:
ok
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!

Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!
Andrew says:
i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!i hate u right to the core of the dna which is at the core of my nucleus of my bone cells in the core of my bone marrow which is right in the middle of the core of my bone!!

Did u think i bothered to answer him? of cos not. let his happy spamming time be fulfilled. lol.

Another Quiz...

2006-11-12T17:01:00.000+08:00

Im crazy over quizzes now....hahaa...so i shall do 1 i found at xintian's blog!! XD
[O] YES (multiply FIVE)
[+]NOT SURE (multiply TWO)

[O] your crush is of opposite sex - im not a lesbian, though i might be a homo.
[X] your crush is born in the same year as you - no a year older...
[O] you know his starsign - yup he told me
[X] you have seen his myspace or friendster at least FIVE TIMES. - he dont hav either..
[O] you know his favourite hangout - yup =)
[X] you know his favourite band - yeah, borrowed a lot of discs frm him
[X] does he have a girlfriend?
[X] does he have a crush?
[O]does he know you exist? - but of cos..
[O] you have raided his phone before - to ask for his email and address
[O] you know exactly where he stays - ya...
[O] you added him on messenger - duh
[O] he added you on messenger - duh
[O] he knows you fancy him - yeah...thanks to a confession...
[O] his friends know you fancy him - i think so..
[X] you have at least ONE class with him - different year...
[O] he acknowledges your presence - duh...
[O] alot of people know you fancy him - yeah...so?
[X] less than 10 people know you fancy him - thanks to truth or dare
[O] you would ask him out if you had the chance - i asked alr out on a few times

total of 79%....good or bad?

im 24% nerd

2006-11-02T10:57:00.000+08:00

[x] you wear/own a pair of glasses
[x] you've played some sort of video game 5 hours
straight
[ ] you have GI Joes or toy dinosours
[ ] you pack your lunch to school
[ ] reading books is fun!
total = 2

[ ] you go to the library to "hang out"
[x] you've corrected people's grammar
[ ] math class rocks!
[x] you've told someone a joke and nobody laughed
total = 2

[ ] you like eating chinese food with chopsticks
[ ] you've won the spelling bee
[ ] girls/boys have cooties! duh!!
[x] you've watched t.v for 4 hours straight
[x] sports are just not my thing
total = 2

[ ] you have/had a pet tarantula, snake, and/orlizard
[ ] you cried because you got an F on something
[ ] your homework is ALWAYS turned in on time
[ ] your NEVER late for class
[ ] spiderman is the coolest superhero EVER!!!!!
total = 0

[ ] you've corrected the teacher
[ ] you want to be a doctor or surgeon when you
grow up
[ ] you have a napolean dynamite t-shirt
[ ] you always have a pen or pencil for class
[ ] you're an honor student
total = 0

[ ] you've never cheated on a test/quiz
[ ] I dont care about my looks...I have school
work to worry about!
[ ] you're in band
[ ] you've tripped and fallen in the hallway
[ ] spiders and bugs are way cool!
total = 0

ADD THEM ALL UP AND MULTIPLY BY 4.then
post "im **% nerd

oh yeah...im 24% nerd. surprising isent it....many ppl got 36%...
haha...this is so lame...

Death Note Movie..

2006-10-26T19:40:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the long hibernation period, im finally back to post on this miserable blog.

Okkk.....Recently, so many things happen, of cos cannot say all...so let's talk abt the deathnote movie....

Death Note finally came out last Thursday, a long awaited film since EOYs for me. Anyway, I cant watch it on the actual day, as I hav piano lesson. Next day was friday, so I asked xiaowei n yizhen if they wanna go watch. In the end, we hav a short-termed agreement that after school we'll go. I ask shermaine LIM to go along with us. Coincidentally, our last period happened to be none other den the famous '29 year old beauty' ms tang, which, (duh) slowed down our time considerably much. After class xw still hav to go c her for wadever her geog paper got prob, n yz n gang wanna ask her wad is a huabini or wadever it is, I knw that isent the word. Lol. Anyway, dyllis n I n yz were joking abt it in the toilet. Dyllis was imaginating the scenario of us asking n ms tang replying :'see, it’s wad im wearing now!' lame, that was out of the point in this post, but wadever lah, adds in to fun in life. Haha. Anyway anyone wondering wad the word means, it's some sort of 'skimpy underwear' (explained by ms tang) that prostitutes wear. Whoots. Haha.

Anyway let's get on with it. We got out of sch, flagged a cab and told the driver to go tm. On the way, I (cleverly) deducted that the cab fee there would take much more den if we take cab to bedok mrt den take mrt, so we told the uncle to go there instead. Cab fee $1.50 each. Take mrt to tm, rushes up to top floor, start queuing. Long crowd, and the tickets r alr 'selling fast'. I had another brainwave and told xiaowei to go with me to century square n c if there's a movie to catch in case we cnt make it. In the end yz called me to say that even if we made it, both of them bo lui to pay, so panda hav to run down instead. (imagine, panda running down escalator!!! Ooo, surprising.) but in the end when we reached century Cineplex, asked the girl at the counter, realised THERE IS NO DEATH NOTE MOVIE AT SHAW THEATRES!!!!! DAMN THEM!!! and since tm sold out, there's no other alternative but go to another place n watch. I and yz managed to maintain this never say die attitude all the time, xw was quite amazed n shermaine jus looked pretty pissed off. Haha. She's always like that. Cnt blame her, it's in her NATURE. Haah, joke. Yz managed to find out the showtimes for other cinemas thru her hp directory guide, and we decided to go to dhoby gaunt/ orchard area as there's more cinemas n a higher probability rate that we can get tickets. Yup. After some more discussions and clever deductions (by me n yz n xw, mostly. Shermaine merely looked bored.), we decided to go to The Cathay, located some area around dhoby gaunt mrt as the timing is more suitable and we still need eat lunch. On the mrt, yz brought out her PSP n we watched initial d the movie. Got this part where jay chou was working at the petrol station den the girl, wadever her name is, is on the other side of the road n calling out to him, jumping up n down. I swear, when she's jumping, her (ahem) assets were bouncing up and down in her purple shirt. I SWEAR IT IS!!!!! Yz keep saying where got where got and keep rewinding to c for a lot of times n we keep laughing. Xw oso say it is wobbling lah. Shermaine jus sit there read book (Chinese novel, omg). No fun in life lah, u panda. Haha. Anyway, we asked the mrt station guy where The Cathay is, and managed to book back seats. Back COUPLE seats. Wadever. Anyway afterwards is abt 3 plus a bit, so we walked to plaza sing to hav lunch. Went to yoshinoya for student set meal, only 4.50. I ate teriyaki chicken, yz ate beef and xw ate salmon. Panda, due to wanting to burn some calories and no money, (and oso due to the fact that pandas eat bamboo n not Japanese set meals), jus sat there n drool while we ate. She oso got lost while going to the toilet to wash off her drool (jk, jk). Anyway im nice wad, I gave her my drink of ice lemon tea n oso my fries and she grabbed them when I offered them to her. Wow. Haha. Afterwards we walked back to The Cathay n on the way we asked panda wad she normally does for EDS practice. something like: Pretend you're walking in a very short and narrow room. Den, the room gets taller. Another is: Pretend that you're a giant and have to prevent smashing into buildings and killing people. Haha. Yz told me that that time when we auditioning for cca grps, shermaine had to act as a lesbian and benjamin's her father, WAHAHAs. We went back, bought some nachos (me), mixed popcorn (xw) and drinks. Went in to sit. Realised that couple seats meant individual seats with only 1 place to put drinks. So in the end I sat between yz n panda. I loved the movie. Throughout the whole thing, I and yz kept discussing abt the show and wad will happen next according to the manga. Yz say that if L continue to savage his usual sugar percentage, he will end up getting diabetes. I agreed. Shermaine just told us to shut up throughout the whole thing. Typical behavior of a panda. Wahas. Anyway I really really really enjoyed the movie and we din realised we hav to wait till the end of the movie to c the sequel's trailer, but nvm. Afterwards we talked some more cork, and went home by individual ways. A perfect day. Haha.

anyway, for those that missed the Death Note Two: The Last Name trailer, here it is from youtube.

back....

2006-10-17T19:58:00.000+08:00

finally got time to post something....my blog is DEAD....haha...sad...
now i'll try to post everything i can in this period...haha..
so many things happen...next time den say bah..haha..now i going to eat dinner...

New Skin!!!!

2006-07-13T15:24:00.000+08:00

YAY. I HAVE NEW SKIN. AT LAST.
no, this is not the skin part of my body. though i hav new skin cells everyday, due to the old ones falling off. O.O
but is.............i got new blogskin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! w00ts~~
spent so much time on it, editing links n profile n transffering stuff. LOL. now if Final Fantasy VII Advent Children de skin!!! With Cloud carrying Tifa. XD haha. Spent so much time chatting on msn, n the tagboard at xt's blog. HEYY I KEEP GOING TO TAG URS U DIN TAG MINE. LOL. must tag mine everyday ok? hahas.

Just came back from sch, after presenting our IDMI. i think our grp (Musical Intelligence- Jiahui, Yingsquare, Jasmine, Jolynn, Dyllis n i) is the best. even though it's nt OUR best, but i think it's still better den the other classes 1. now i gtg, piano lesson at 4. at least i got still changed my blogskin. hahas. X)

Yeah....

2006-07-12T12:58:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm.......now no time to write long long posts...so i just do the thing that raisin tagged me for. um. yeah.

Skin colour - beige
Hair colour - brown
Eye colour - dark brown
Clothes colour - mainly black, red, pink and white.
Wardrobe colour - brown
Seven memorable things this month -
1, IDMI week
2, Youth Day
3, Hard Gay Videos
4, That day we went Bugis n Marina Square
5, That day i met Rachel, Minghui and co.
6, MEP concert day
7, CY forum and Chibi Tenshi postings (nth to put liao..)
Six people you talked to face to face this week -
1, dyllis
2, xy
3, raisin
4, mum
5, jolynn
6, jiahui
Five things you bought recently-
1, my lunch
2, handphone pouch for zhiwei for her bdae prezzie
3, some presents
4, my cello scores
5, some sweets n snacks
Four people you saw today -
1, mum
2, dyllis
3, grandmother
4, dyllis' brother
Three people you want to talk to now but cant -
1, xy
2, desmond
3, emeleen
Two things on your mind now -
1, IDMI project
2, homework (sounds boring, but true)
Lastly you need to tag [your age] ppl to do this quiz -
1, Charmaine
2, Kexin
3, Fuyu
Can't think of any1 else.....let's just pretend i am 3 years old. X)

Funny..

2006-07-11T13:49:00.000+08:00

LOL. Recently i hav no time to update, sorry! But i found this thing really funny. Got it from 1 of CY Forum's members. XD

In Singapore, the majority of us live in Highly Dangerous Buildings (HDB), And most people have already got used to Paying and Paying (PAP).
Not only do you have to pay, you Pay Until Bankrupt (PUB).
If that's not enough, somebody still Purposely Wants to Dig (PWD) and get more from you.
So what more can you do when you are in the Money Only Environment (MOE)?
With the current Mad Accounting System (MAS) , you are forced to Pay the Sum Ahead (PSA) , Which will leave some people Permanently Owing Some Banks (POSB).
And forced to live on the Loan Techniques Always (LTA) system.
When you fall sick and happen to be admitted to a Money Operating Hospital (MOH), You might be able to use your Cash Prior to Funeral (CPF) fund.
If you are out of luck, you may meet doctors who Never Use Heart (NUH) to treat you, And you will be Sure to Give up Hope (SGH).
To help ease the traffic, motorists have to pay Cash On Expressway (COE).
If that doesn't help, they can always Eternally Raise Prices (ERP) on the roads.
If you don't own a car, you can always make a Mad Rush to the Train (MRT), OR get squashed in a bus Side By Side (SBS).
Lastly, under all these pressures, there are not many places we can relax, not even the good old place we used to go because it has become So Expensive and Nothing To See Actually (SENTOSA)!!!

TAG GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-06-01T20:12:00.000+08:00

I got tagged by dyllis, im one of her victims (-_-lll). but anyway, i think it would b fun to play it anyway. I copied the instructions from dyllis.
INSTRUCTIONS
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this "game" and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the SECOND time, there's no need to go this again.
5. The most important thing: HAVE FUN DOING IT!

Like dyllis, it's obvious it's a guy. I hav stopped being a homo for good a long time ago. so for those out there stop thinking i like gers. obviously the homo thing is a joke.
My expectations (nt in any order).....
1. nt gay
2. doesnt cheat on me
3. very very cute...ok maybe the very part is exaggerating
4. funny
5. shuai (basic expectations...every1 has their point of shuai)
6. tall
7. cares abt me
8. um...jus everything that a good bf should hav...lazy write out

VICTIMS *EVIL LAUGHTER* lol
1. First Edible Raisin RUIXIN
2. Charmaine
3. Yingying
(darn. the good ones gone)
4. Xintian
5. Xiaowei
6. Lydia
7. Bra
8. Fiona

HAV FUN y' all =)

w00ts~

2006-05-31T16:31:00.000+08:00

MINGHUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
FOREVVA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME
PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE
HAIZ. Y U DONT ACCEPT ME AS UR WIFE? I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LUV U LEH. MUACKS~
MINGHUI, I WILL LOVE U FOREVER. EVEN IF U HAV WIFE OR HAV CHILDREN OR GRANDCHILDREN OR GREAT GRANDCHILDREN
jus joking. i was bored. n i n ruixin promised each other to type out something as crazy as this . hahahaha. dont take it seriously.

Blahz....Life Continues...

2006-05-30T15:41:00.000+08:00

I edited the post on the Shiki lyrics, so now it's Romanji in front, den translation below. I wonder if i should put the lyrics on the welcome page. i think i'll do that later. hahas.
Last Friday, I went back rss with yunqing.....for fun, basically. Rmb last time the small pond and bridge there? Now there is a BIG POND there, den with steps going down thru the middle of it so u can view the fishies clearly thru glass....plus a small waterfall....n a sign saying wad science garden....now the sch so rich liao...can afford to build a BIG POND with STEPS n GLASS, plus WATERFALL???? really really really rich...haiz...too bad we left without using these facilities...
ya...den after we sign in...for our pass n stuff...we met pjuay den go HOD room n chat n talk n alot of things lah....keep saying our maths n science get very low..thanks to him hahaha.....after a while zaiyong n yiwei came in. Zaiyong carrying basketball...both of them act cool alr...style hair...especially yiwei...the hair is like shyt like that hahahahaa.....ok...den they left to play basketball outside the sch n we went to eat lunch....go buy food the sixth store auntie..rmb the economical rice stall...ya that 1 we go eat den alot of things nt there liao n the auntie sell us very very cheap hhaha^^ While eating....Nicholas walk pass lor den i was like, OMG. Cos he got new specs, WHITE SPECS leh....very very weird on him...den ZHENGWEI walk in. Den they both c each other kena shock....cos same glasses den c them argue very very funny....den after a while they oso go liao...duno go where....we eat finish den we go oso lor....c those small small kids shouting at each other...imagine....the most vulgar vocab is probably," i dont fren you liao!" hehe.. okok....den we walk back to HOD room....but found mrs tay (-_-lll) talking to some parents....yq dun wanna meet her, so we go the long way, around to the english room. there we found siqi n another ger...both ASSheads ahahah.....( in a good way lah...) I talk to them lor..den yq din say anything...c im soooooooooo frenly hahahaha jus joking lah....talk for quite a long time den yq jus walk away lor...den she keep sms me say she walking out n crap...den i call her...n she told me to look out of the corridor...yuan lai she hide behind pillar only....lame lah wahlao...den we collect bag return pass den walk out of sch.....cos i said i missed zai yong alot...n i wanna c him....ya wad, i miss him alot, so many months nv c him le....i miss all of 6/2, nt only him mah...den she giv me that kind of look, like im crazy n i like zai yong...lame shyt lah..den we go outside sch watch them play bball lor...there got a lot 6/2 peeps...like zaiyong, yiwei, jasper, ee kwee, alan, yeechong plus zhengwei....ya...ok afterwards we just played hp games n went home lor....on saturday, nth special happened, except for when we go to the restaurant "Pot Luck" for lunch (we got it from the gurmit singh tele program when they introduce) at East Coast Road...walk in...den guess who i saw.....NICHOLAS AGAIN. suay ah. 2 times in 2 days. We jus raised eyebrows at each other...lol. Ok, gonna sign off for now...btw, i edited the profile n the links....go n take a look lor....XD

Shiki lyrics

2006-05-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

Due to the song that keep playing in my blog, i decided to put lyrics!! ^^hehe...

[[ Shiki ]]
by w-inds.

Hoshikatta mono hitotsu zutsu te ni irete
sono naka demo kawari no nai takaramono ga atte
jishaku mitaku wake mo naku tada hikareteku
kokoro wo atatameau you ni futari wo tsutsunda haru no kaze

--
sugoshita shunkan ga fuete mune ni kisamu kimi to no seasons
zutto kono saki mo kurikaesu to shinjite
asu harete mo ame no hi demo
mou ima wa kimi ni aenai
tooi nami ni sarawareta ano natsu no yume
--

hitoban juu soba ni itemo
mata itsumo no nichijou ni modosareru yoake wo urandari

moshimo itsuka kono sekai no owari ga kite
soredemo futari nara issho da to omotteta aki no yoru

--
hitomi wo tojireba itsumo yomigaeru kimi to no seasons
sono nukumori to itami wa kienai mama
yasashisa ga tarinakatta ne
bukiyou na boku ni nokotta saigo ni mieta omoide wa ano fuyu no namida
--

so I cannot forget four seasons we've lived in
kimi ga inai shiki wo wataru yo

so I cannot forget four seasons we've lived in
ano sora mo kanashimi mo daite
so I cannot forget four seasons we've lived in

--
sugoshita shunkan ga fuete mune ni kisamu kimi to no seasons
zutto kono saki mo kurikaesu to shinjite
asu harete mo ame no hi demo
mou ima wa kanaerarenai
tooi hibi ni oitekita ano futari no yume
--

so I cannot forget four seasons we've lived in
so I cannot forget four seasons we've lived in

Translation:

One by one, I got the things I desired
And even in those, there is one irreplaceable treasure
It can not be something like a magnet but I am attracted by it
The spring wind covered us to warm each other's heart

--
The moment I passed by increased and I engrave the seasons I was with you in my heart
Always believing that I will repeat it again after this
It doesn't matter anymore whether tomorrow is clear or raining
Now that I can't see you no more
The far away wave swept that summer dream away
--

Even though you are by my side all through the night ,
I blame on the dawn that has to return everyday

Even if someday this world will come to an end
But I have always thought as long as we are together, the autumn nights would be the same

--
Whenever I close my eyes, I recall the seasons I was with you
The warmth and the pain is still there
The kindness was not enough, was it?
The visible memory in the end that left in incompetent me, was those winter tears
--

so I cannot forget four seasons we've lived in
I will go across all the seasons alone without you

so I cannot forget four seasons we've lived in
Even that sky too, embraces the sorrow

so I cannot forget four seasons we've lived in

--
The moment I passed by increases and in my heart I engravethe seasons I was with you
Always believing that I will repeat it again in the future
It does not matter anymore whether tomorrow is clear or raining
Now that It can't be fulfilled
I left behind that dream of us to the far days
--

so I cannot forget four seasons we've lived in
so I cannot forget four seasons we've lived in

My Bdaez....

2006-05-18T18:34:00.000+08:00

LOL. yesterdae was 1 of my best birthdays. Thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday, gave me birthday cards and presents.
List of ppl who gav me presents, THANKS
1. A stuffed pink toy animal - Jade
2. A teddy bear- Xiao Wei
3. An SIA teddy bear and 2 Bandai anime action figures....they arent cheap- My cousins
4. A small Hello Kitty bag and a small mirror- My Aunties
5. A keychain and a small pencil holder (i think)- Fiona
6. WaT CD- Si Hui
7. w-inds CD- Yun Qing
....plus those other ppl who say they are going to give me later....
Birthday Cards. Only 2 ppl gave my birthday card. Zhi Wei and Yun Qing.
And also to all ppl who wished me a happy birthday...
Ppl from our class, James, Wee Tong....
THANKS TO ALL OF YOU!!!!
Special thanks to: Minghui, Ken, Rachel etc. who called me just to wish me a happy birthday. I thought you forgot haha. Thanks, im really touched.
Celebrated my birthday at Sizzler at Toa Payoh. Ate Japanese Teriyaki Chicken. Not Bad. I listened to the WaT and w-inds CD. Both are really nt bad...hahas. Thanks Yun Qing and Si Hui!!! We really had fun that day....hope during the June holidays or something can go again haha....
Before signing off this time....i wanna giv my birthday wishes to:
Xiao Wei, ur birthday's tomorrow!! I next time den giv u present ok? hope u dont mind. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIAO WEI WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
and...
Ivan....Happy Birthday!!! Your birthday's today, I havent forgotten yet....haha...sorry for all the things i did...really sorry.....just wanna wish u a happy birthday, may all ur wishes come true (even if ur wishes are the bad ones. Lol joking)

17 May...........my birthday

2006-05-17T13:28:00.000+08:00

LOL. today 17 may leh........birth of Wang Lihom n Clara Tan.........hahas but more importantly....
it's MY BIRTHDAY hahahahahahahaahaha. later i going out to toa payoh sizzler to celebrate with my family n cousins. =) jus nw i received a few presents from classmates. jade gav me a stuffed toy...pink colour one.......i duno wad animal it is it doesnt seem to resemble anything haha....n xiao wei gav me a toy bear....haha thanks u 2....others say they will giv next time....
this year the 1st to wish me a birthday was........xintian^^ . she said happy bdae to me in msn at abt 11 something.......haha a bit too early but ur still the 1st!!=) haha....my fren James wished my happy bdae at abt 12.03am...on msn oso haha........and oso thanks to everyone else who wished my happy bdae today!!! really appreciate it.....my rss frens celebrated my bdae with me ytd when my sch hav a holiday cos of the poll election thing........VERY VERY FUN haha.......lemme tell u wad happened ytd....
at 11.30 i met yunqing at payah lebar MRT......we were supposed to meet her so called frens.......den her frens are LATE.......so nice rite? so we went take bus to suntec 1st.......n hav lunch at mcdonalds.....i ate mcspicy with green tea n twister fries or wadever....afterwards i ate Yumi Yoghurt!!! peach flavour........very nice.......after that we went kbox.....at abt $10 per person........quite nice lah....the song we cannot catch up with is Ye Qu haha by Jay.......afterwards we were to meet sihui so we took a cab to rss without meeting yq's frens... i dont even wanna meet them anyway...so shyty n biarchy lor.........anyway, it's nice to c sihui again haha!!! nw gtg soon.........com lab lesson over......i'll update asap next time.........HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!! hahahahahaha =)

to you.........

2006-05-11T22:47:00.000+08:00

hey. buck up ok? dont feel so depressed....oso make me sad....cheer up ganbatte ne~ ok? =) smile more........i dedicate this to you so can make u more happy (i think). so pls......cheer up. i really really really dont like to c u like this. i c le so sad....haiz. things will b for the better, i promise.
CHEER UP^^^

back.............

2006-05-11T21:43:00.000+08:00

yay........back from lvl camp le haha. very fun lah n get to learn more about friends........blahblahblah. anyway here's wad happened, just a brief explanation:
Day 1- arrive at school. surprised that sch gate kena flood. must b some parents very "anxious" abt their child carrying heavy luggage lah.....actually bring so much for wad? nt going overseas holidaes lor. got our class t. damn cool i tell u. black with white jarvix sign, white stripes and our names written in white behind. afterwards..........alot of things happen lah. went to many places........like malay heritage centre.....learn alot of things.....we r in a race against other classes but we started off second last......and the last team to reach back wash toilets....great... Anyway we r jus trying nt to b last........dont wanna wash toilets....den we keep singing songs, cheers and stuff inside bus...haha very fun. throughout the whole thing we jus keep bumping into Iowa....fated lah we both...anyway at the last stop (mhc) we managed to finish our tasks 1st n went back to sch.......we very relieved cos we knw we nt last......came back at 3 something......anyway.......den when we reach there we were all like, " so which position r we?" den the teacher like kena shock like that, n told us we were 1st, n there was supposed to b a gong, but we were FAR FAR too early LOL!!! anyway we were all so shock lor.........anyway we get an hour's bath time since we so early haha......we told ourselves that the next day must oso work hard so would get 1st again hopefully.....
Day 2- last night sleep so cham. no pillow wadsoever unlike dyllis. i sleep between dyllis n xintian. quite ok bah i guess.....except dyllis keep rolling to me like les like that......crazy......anyway i din get much sleep but woke up at 5 plus due to some LOUD giggles...dont wanna mention names......ok den we washed up n eat breakfast n everything....den we go off liao. i tell u, our luck completely changed ok? dont need to write complete details, im too pissed to write. but let's jus say on the way back from last stop we n Iowans (again) racing against each other den started raining. quite hard. DEN the Iowas' bus come. leave us there like idiots standing in the rain. we were really really really pissed. den FINALLY our bus came. by den we damn wet...but chiong back sch to find out....WE ARE LAST. MEANS TOILET WASHING TONIGHT. OMGOMGOMG. at night we practised for the fusion village......i doing silat......others doing indian dance n beijing opera. imagine. i cant believe that 24 hours ago we were jus saying stuff like must work hard to get 1st for today......haiz. 1 day we get alll the luck, the next we were flattened. life so unfair rite? haha......we bathed very late that nite......like near 10....that's like 5 hrs later den the previous day =.= man.......afterwards supper wash up n sleep.
Day 3- no competitions today.......instead go discovery centre do activities.......fun lah i think.......quite....1st we go watch a film on some antartic advanture....den we split up....i go boat peddling....damn tiring...afterwards duno do wad jeopardy quiz........WE WON IOWA HAHAHHAHAHAHA.......okok let's nt get saddistic....ok....afterwards go kent ridge park do research......i go there slack lah haha....den me n dyl n ruixin went on our own way..........go iowa boys there sing a lot of stupid songs like the powerpuff gers.....elmo's world.....afterwards got my special singing, the "partridge in a pear tree" song (lol. i think many should know our signature song) quite fun lah......n many things happened. den after we went back, bath eat dinner n prepare for the following concert.....we cancelled out the silat part, practised indian with silat ppl clapping as there is no background music n practised the opera as well. since no silat alr, so i n rx oso do mcing. quite fun, shout alot, just like last time.....hahax. whole thing ends at over 12. lol. ERIC ROCKS. when we supposed to sleep le.......we sat up n go "interview" a special someone........( NO WE R NT FLATTERING U) hahaha.....fun. n played something like truth or dare......i guess the few of u knw wad im talking abt....den always got teachers or seniors ard we jus quickly lie to the ground n u can actually hear the sound of bodies hitting the wooden floor in out haste haha...finally at abt 2 something we all dont want talk le go n sleep...
Day 4- i cant believe today dyllis actually woke up earlier den me n called me up. anyway nothing special. jus wash up...pack stuff, after breakfast jus clean up. the prob is, WE CLEAN TOILETS AGAIN. I DUNO Y WE KEEP DOING THIS. but actually is quite ok n slack lah......afterwards carry our stuff back into classroom n help clean upstairs.....um. afterwards do some survey papers n stuff......n prize presentation. we din win. that's all i say. but it's all good lah.....den sing song around a big circle......byebye eric n wei loong n nice seniors.....c u next time. sadsadsad. ok, fastforward..................................................when we going home that time, i went on kangrui's car....n went his house. OMG DYLLIS DONT THINK NOT STRAIGHT. IT'S NT WAD U THINK. i agreed to help him on his maple thing.....haha. and do maths lah. lunch is mcdonalds big mac. um. ok lah. yeah. afterwards we jus played more maple n did alot alot of lame things. at abt 5 like that i hav to go toa payoh mum need get new specs. i bot 5 comic books.....so now i hav the complete set of detective loki yay!!! haha. now im doing this. nice nice....
more next time........now jus kinda tired......

fun!!!!

2006-05-06T16:20:00.000+08:00

yay now can play le!!!! anyway.......we changed place le n i ended up sitting left of my original seat.....nice......not. n im sitting with yijia, she's ok, quite fun to be with haha. anyway the person i pity most is stilll kr, he ended up sitting with a biarch. sad sad sad. i really really pity him. the biarch think she so popular, yet so ugly and bitchy, she make clp look like an angel. so u know wad i mean. i so totally appreciate clp now i got her. that's how bad she was. n still is. wad a biarch lah. u go her blog n she wrote crap n all my frens think she's damned lame. she thinks she is rebellious. omg man if she is den we all r wad? lame shit. anyway i told xt n she was all WTFWTFWTF n we spammed her tagoboard hahahahahaha. though she try n retaliate but she too shity le n all her ex classmate was all like: tthis is very very very sad. laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame. i SO appreciate xt for her support lor. THANKS ALOT GER U RULEZ. haha wad bests frens r for?hahaha.......( no sihui dont get jealous u STILL r my best fren^^^ hahahaha ) oh yeah.......day after tmr is level camp le haha.......den abt 2 weeks later is my bdae!!!! man of my friends from old school buy present lorz haha ( including angyeechong omg yun qing got him to pay for my present oso she tell me) anyway im gonna get WaT and w-inds cd le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha i got a bit hyper? lolz. anyway that's the recent updates......it's all fun lah haha. oh, and kr started maple i downloaded into his com that day so all he wanna talk abt is maple or dota. -_-lllll yes yes very very lame. science lesson oso fun xz valencia wt n i anyhow do the hothouse also get 3rd haahahah wad a joke. then while waiting for the results we started playing the game where we hold each other's hand n play scissors paper stone and caught by ms khoo den she call it the "i slap u u slap me" game n we keep laughing haha. i play with irene dyllis n jade during visual arts period cos teacher nv come until my right hand DAMNED red haha but it's all in the fun mah. lol. friday so fun. lol i go play maple now. kr oso got his sis to start playing.......wth hahah. okok......i go play liaoz =)

Yay

2006-04-29T16:33:00.000+08:00

Changed blogskin, it's w-inds 1 now yay!!!
now at kangrui's house. im supposed to do geog pairwork......and im the 1 doing everything. he jus goes around packing his scouts thing, cos he hav to go camp or something. lame i know. his house BIG u knw, and i mean it. probably the size of my future house or something. yeah. it's quite cool, and his family members very nice to me haaha ( unlike him jkjk) so now i doing geog n blogging at the same time. lolz.
anyway i hope every1 will like the skin and song of the blog. it's nice.......now i really hav to concentrate on the geog thing and eat pringles ahaa ( provided by his mum) afterwards might hav to go his house again........
oh yeah jus nw he asked me if he looks retarded in his scouts half-uni. in fact he does. jus joking.

lolz.....

2006-04-28T12:51:00.000+08:00

nw in com lesson. btw u scroll down to my previous post below there got empty space rite? ignore it lah jus scroll down that is zw last time press alot of space bar mah.....ya den afterwards u can c some stuff last time post de liao........very very boring.........
oh yeah next week we all gonna change place liao......wonder who i sit with.........
erm.........yeah i think that's all...........my flashplayer thing got problem lah cannot draw star...
i select to draw star they keep drawing the polystar or wadever it is thingy.........

2006-04-19T13:47:00.000+08:00

in com leson now very boring lah and zhiwei keep bothering me n want me to giv her pocky to eat (haha) i deleted my flash player thing so cnt do.............ya.........jus nth to do lor......nth else...
265145 lpmkipujh0<<<< zhiwei type 1 nt my prob.....
den now she keep whining haha cos her com got prob.....

this is typed by zhiwei.,..dotdotdot...denb now she in website keep telling me to look at a picture of an ice cream 6+ 9(-_-lll)

Guess who typed that again?

some probs

2006-04-07T21:53:00.000+08:00

now got some probs ard..hope u dont mind......i try clear up

WaT's new album

2006-04-07T19:04:00.000+08:00

I updated the etc.....VERY MESSY OK..patience.....
It's about WaT's new debut album......for those who duno wad it is forget it..

Changes

2006-04-07T13:17:00.001+08:00

Blog up.....not alot of ppl know that i hav blog....haha
Changed skin.........the previous one crappy.....im going to make more changes in the future........but i still like trc haha.....um.....yeah......enjoy^^

my acc flashplayer got prob. so got time do it. my flash thingy kana delete oso. great.

Finally up!!!

2006-04-05T13:58:00.000+08:00

Yeah................the wait is over.......haha...nice eh? i like tsubasa reservoir chronicle series...
there are still many major areas havent complete.....i try to complete as soon as i can ok?
haha....yeah.....expect new things to be up soon.......
^^

Construction

2006-04-05T13:32:00.000+08:00

Currently under construction. Hopefully will be up soon.

2006-03-10T13:11:00.000+08:00

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